Saturday, May 24, 2008
okay, so i am supposed to be stuck at home doing work whilst nic is at his P Group party with the gang.
Roar, weekends are oh-so-boring nowadays :(
there's plenty to complete
1) Research for DPD, F&B, MICE, Lodging
2) Article Review
3) Revamp my presentation
4) Check out guest lecture
5) Calculus h/w, done actually... (i seriously shld have taken A&f)
6) STUDY FOR OPS AND MICE TEST!!!
zomg, we're gonna nail this.
last sem, lets go!
Was thinking I'll end off there but wait..
I've burnt way too many bridges before I've built other stronger ones.
Hold on a minute, why would you even want to burnt those bridges because you'll get a chance to walk through them next time?
I dont know, I dont know alot, all the time, signature sentence, because I simply dont know.
It really hurts to think back at the mistakes I've said, done or made
That is, to burn the many bridges I couldnt event keep track
Right now, I felt that I've built one or two, rebuilding that trust and happiness we once had.
Its tough but I really hate myself for the number of bridges I've burnt my entire life.
I hate myself so much it hurts to look at my past.
Cheryl Jiang, the one who's with me since Sec1 to Sec4,
but we dont contact each other now because she's at JC and we dont communicate other than in class.
I really do miss her,
like how I'll let her know my darkest secrets during chin class, the only time i sat with her
like how I'll sms her to wish her all the best and to study hard
like how she'll religiously give me a present for my bday, because she's 2 days olders.
like how she always joke that shes my jiejie and she must take care of me
like how she'll say how fortunate i am to be able to run so fast, because of her health reasons, she cant.
like how she made me study so hard for Chin Olvls (because I hate it) and to attempt to achieve for an A, but I only made it for a B3.
I cried because I know I could do well, but she told me she knew I did my best.
When I threw my wallet on the floor upon hearing I got 35 points for Prelims 1,
I broke my mirror that I had with me since I was... 1?
She told me its okay and to give my best in the next prelim and offered to buy my back a mirror and to pray that nothing bad would happen to me
When I took back my results for the second prelim, I got 25 points.
I cried on my way to the toilet again, when I was back in class, she whispered:" I know you did yr best, still got time for Os, look! at least you improved 10 points right? "
When we got our results for Os, we cried together. Prob cause of the good grades, prob because its the last day of school togehter and the last time she'll be taking her report book/ results, taking a paper, oral test, wishing each other good luck, before me, with me.
She sat in front of me for 2 years, small test, main examninations, oral, take register, take report book la, whatever shit la, she was always there.
The girl whom you will never notice when you walk into class, quiet, reserved and smart.
I love my friend so much, I miss her all the time.
Like her, I regret not keeping in contact with many others
Even those in TP, whom I see everyday, I really miss SJC alot.
Everyday with those girls screaming and having fun and bonding.
Just a 'hi' or 'bye' will not go pass as something we've once had.
Please,lets meetup.
1:05 AM
I love vintage & rouge-.
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