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Wednesday, May 25, 2005

okie.
i know i shldnt be here but i jus dreamt of the wierdest thing in my life
i slept from 4plus to like now?
GOD!
WHAT WAS I THINKINGG?
SO I DECIDED TO BLOG IT DWN SO I CAN READ IT AGN N AGN N AGN(:
DO DREAMS COME TRUE?
I HOPE THEY DO..

OKIE.
STARTS.
I DREAMT TT A GROUP OF CLASSMATES N FRENS
WE WERE IN A WIERD THEME PARK TT WE ENTERED THROUGH SOME HOLE I DUG IN A PREVIOUS DREAM?
THEN I WENT IN
THEN THERE WAS YVONNE,SIMIN AND THIS REALLY KIASU PERSON
WHO WUN LET US GO FIRST
THEN WE WENT THERE.HAV TO ANSWER QUESTION WRITTEN IN BAMBOO CHUNKS?
THEN TE ANSWER ALSO BAMBOO STICK
THEY DUWAN WALK ACROSS THE BAMBOO PLANKS TO CALL ME GO
THEN RAN OFF AFTER TT.
THEN THERE WAS KIM TIANG.
SHE'S SCARED OF RATS.
SO AM I
BUT THERE HAPPENED TO B RATS ARD
SO THE BIG BIG BIRD WANTED TO EAT IT
WHEN ITS HAPPENING AT NIGHT??
THEN THE BIG BIRD FLEW TO THE RAT N CAUGHT IT
AND THEN PUT IT INTO HIS POCKET??
DONT WORRY,NO ZIP LA.
JUS TT TIS ALL FURRYYY

THEN WE MOVED ON
BTUT HREE WERE A NUMBER OF RATS RUNNING ACROSS US
SO TT STUPID BIGG BIRD WHEN TO GET INTO SOME VEHICLE TT LOOKED LIKE A TANKER
AND STARTED CHASING AFTER THE DAMN RATS!
AND THE SMARTY PANTS RATS RAN TOWARDS US!!
AND WE SCREAMED N YELLED AND NEARLY GOT RUN OVER BY THE FILTHY ANIMAL'S LITTLE TOY TANK
OH YES,AND THE BIRD IS BIG BIG
BIGGER THAN ME!
SO IS THE TANKER OKIE!
SCARED THE WITS OUT OF ME

THEN WE WENT INTO THE MOVIE TICKET BOOTH
AND SUBMARINE(!) CAME TO FIND US!!
AND IF I WASNT WRONG,
WE WERE TALKING LIKE NORMAL FRENS
THEN WE JUS CHECKED THE AMOUNT OF MONEY WE HAD
THN WE WENT INTO A FOOD PLACE WITHOUT BUYING TICS
THEN THE FOOD SHOP HAD FRIED CHICKEN SO I SUPPOSE ITS KFC
THEN WE ATE N LAUGHED N EVERYTHING
FRENS WERE AVRIL,DARYL,LYNNE
(AND ALL THESE PPL I SAW BEFORE I WENT HOME TODAY.
SO THEY WERE THE LAST FEW FRENS I SAW!??FREAKY)
I DONT THING I ATE ANYTHING
THEN SUDDENLY SCENE CHANGE AH
THEN I WAS AT HOME
WITH SUBMARINEAT HOME WATCHING TV
AND I THINK THE PERSON NEXT TO ME IS MY SISTER
AND WE WERE ASKING SUBMARINE WHAT IS HE DOING NOW?
THEN SUBMARINE TOLD US __ WAS PLAYING __ SPORT AND DOING REPORTS OF IT
AND SUBMARINE CAN GET A UNI CERT FOR THOSE CHEESY STUFF
WELL.THE DREAMY ME BELIEVED TT(HAH!)

THEN, MY MUM CAME HOME
SO I INTRODUCED THEM
THEN WE WERE WATCHING TV AND TALKING
THEN I WAS IN THE TOILET
FOR WHATEVER REASON,
I WAS WASHING MY FACE??
THEN I WENT TO CHANGE CLOTHES
THEN I TOOK SUCK A BLOODY LONG TIME TO CHOOSE
AND THEN, I HEARD THE PHONE RANG
I OPENED N LOOK TO SEE THE STUPID FACES OF UNKNOWN SURFERS N CHRISTINA AGUILERA.
MY DAMN POSTERS!
KIM YELLED: "BLOODY HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

NICE
I WOKE UP FROM MY FUCKING NICE DREAM!!!
AND IT WAS MY MUM
DONT BLAME HER
BUT I WAS SUPPOSED TO WAKE UP AN HR AGO
AHHH...AN HOUR OF CHIN IN EXCHANGE FOR A WONDERFUL DREAM
ISNT IT WORTH IT?
AND TELL YOU SOMETHING
MY STUPID PROTEIN PUMPER INSIDE WAS POUNDING SO HARD,SO FAST I COULD FELL IT!!!
POUND POUND POUND POUND POUND
HOW I WISH IT WAS TRUE?
BUT THE SUBMARINE INSIDE HAD HORRIBLE HORRENDOUS ENGLISH!!
I WOKE UP N I TRIED TO REMEMBER TT POSE I WOKE UP WITH
SO I'LL TRY N HAV THOSE DREAMS AGN??
CRAZY

GOSH.
MY HEART IS STILL BEATING SO FAST TODAY
OKIE.SHALL BATH N STUDY NOW!!
DONT WORRY BOUT MY PROTEIN PUMPER,
THE MISSY JUS TOOK MY BLOOD PRESSURE TODAY.
AND IM NORMAL
YEAHNESS!!!

COUNTDOWN TO Os------------5 MORE PATHETIC DAYS!!!!
STUDY!!!

7:29 PM

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Saturday, May 14, 2005

HAHAS.
I JUS VISITED THE TEAM SPORE SITE
THERE'S THIS THING ABT VOTING FOR UR FAVE ATHELETE??
HUH.LOOKED AT BADMINTON N SUBMARINE'S NOT UNDER TOP 50.
CRIES.
WHY DIN I GO VOTE??HUH.
SIGH.JOHNATHAN TANG ALSO NOT IN?
LIKE HUH??AND DEREK'S IN.HMMM...
LOOKS AROUND
LOOKS CAN CARRY U UP THERE AHH??
BUT DEREK WENT UP TO SEMI FOR COMP N JOHNATHAN DIN,
SO TTS QUITE FAIR HUH??
WHATEVER..
BUT THOSE VOTERS WERE REALLYY BIASED.
CAN SEE.
BLOODY HELL!!!
SUBMARINE IS NOT THERE!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

GOSH,MY BRA IS SOAKED.
JUS FINISHED LUNCH N BACK FRM TRN
SIAN,MY SKILLS DEPROVE LIKE ALOT???
CANT REALLY HIT THE DAMN BALL.
AND THERE'S TRN TMR
AHH..SAVIOUR!
BETTER TRAIN.ELSE GO SUNDAY TRN MALU LIKE SHIT
MAN,SUBMARINE DIN GO FOR TRN TODAY
THEN ALICIA TOLD ME TT TTS CAUSE THE NATIONAL TEAM WENT FOR COMP IN VIETNAM
CRIES.
IM LIKE ENDING TRN REALL SOON?
WHAT IF SUBMARINE DOESNT MAKE IT BACK??
GOSH.
WHAT AM I TALKING ABT?HAHAS.

damn,Os are like in fifteen more days?
ahh...and i haven remember all those chinese words yet?
mian.need help.hahas.
BUT I MEAN,EVEN IF I REMEMBER THE WHOLE DAMN BOOK
WILL I REMEMBER?
AND I THINK THERE'S NO USE FOR HAVIN EXAMS
CAUSE PPL JUS TRY TO STUFF ALL THOSE SHIT IN THE BRAINS
N JUS VOMIT THEM OUT ON THE ANSWER SHEET
AND AFTER TT ITS PARTY TIME
I MEAN LIEK WHO STILL CARES HOW TO WRITE THOSE CHIN WORDS AFTER THEY GRAD?
AND WHO STILL USES THOSE FOUR FOUR CHIN WORDS WHEN THEY TALK?
DO TT IN SPORE N U GET SLAPPED LA
HAHAS.

EWW,MY BRA IS STILL SOAKED.
AHH,IM LIKE SO PROUD OF MYSELF.
IW ENT JOGGING ALONE AT NIGHT ON FRIDAY
GOSH,IT WAS LIKE THE FIRST TIME I RAN SOO FAST
CAUSE MY HSE HERE GOT ALOT OF AH NEH NEHS
THEY FINISHED WORK MA.
THEN I RUN RUN RUN,
THEN ONE MAN-KA-LI APPEAR
OKIE..NOT BAD.ONE ONLY,JUS RUN PASS HIM.
I RAN PASS HIM.
THE RUN RUN RUN,
ALAMAK.ONE, TWO..THREE..FOUR..FIVE..
WHATEVER,THIS WHOLE GROUP OF MANKALI CAME OUT FROMT HE BUSHES
WHATEVER THEY WERE DOING IN THERE??
THEN I QIONG AH..
SCARE THE HELL OUT OF ME.
THEN I RUN RUN RUN RUN
I PASS THIS MANKALI ALSO
THEN LTR,I TURN ONE BIGG ROUND,
THEN I RAN PAST HIM AGAIN.
MET HIM LIKE THREE TIMES?
HUH..I WAS SO SCARED LA.
LIKE GHOST LIKE TT.
SOMEMORE 8 AT NIGHT.
THEN NOBODY ARD ME.
THNE I RUN RUN RUN,HE STILL AT THE BACK!
THEN I JUS RAN ALL THE WAY,THEN BACK TO MY HSE
MAN,IM NOT GG TO RUN ALONE AT NIGHT AGN

THEN AFTER TT,SHANTAL CALL ME.
SAY CAN GO CYCLING LE
THEN I WAS LIKE HUH??
OKIE,STILL WENT.
THEN WE WENT TO PUMP MY TYRES.
THEY'RE FLAT.
AND I HAPPILY DATE HER FOR CYCLING SESSION
THE PUMP ALSO WIERD WIERD DE.
KEEP ON PUMP AIR WHEN I DIN PRESS ANYTHING??
EHH,THEN WE CYCLE.
THEN XIANGLI CALLED.
ASK IF WANNA GO CHOMPS.
THEN REMEMBERED TT MANDA DATE ME FOR KELLY'S PARTY.
SO THE TWO IDIOTS HAPPILY CYCLE ALL THE WAY FROM SENGKANG TO HOUGANG GREEN
WELL,NOT V FAR LA.
JUS TT MY THIGHS N KNEES WERE KILLING ME
NUA NUA DE.
THEN WISHED HER,STAYED IN THE POOL ROOM FOR A WHILE
SOME PPL NOT V CLOSE TO INSIDE..
THEN WENT OFF CAUSE DIN WANNA HAV SORE EYE LA.
WENT RACING WITH LEISHA KUAH
AND MY SLIPPER CAME OFF AND I BROKE MY TOE NAIL
HOW NICE??
THEN I CYCLED HOME CAUSE MUM REACH HOME LE
HAHS.
SO FUN..HAHAS.
I CAN CYCE TO CHOMPS LE!!
BUT NOW,I KNOW TT I HAV A FEAR OF ROADS WHEN IM ON THE WHEELS.
I V SCARED TO CYCLE ON THE ROAD DE.
IM SUCH A CHICKEN EH?
AND TT SHANTA HAPPILY TAKE SO MANY SHORTCUTS LA.
WHATEVER.
AHAHS.

HMMM,I SUPPOSE IM GG OFF TO BATH LE
GOTTA STUDY CHIN TOO.AHH...
GRUMBLES.

KIM LOVES ALL!




tell me that its you
the one tt makes me smile
the soul that lies within me
the passion i posses
and love that i have for you
the speed that i can go
and strength tt i have
is kept alive by you
they all came about because
of You.


you gave me life
and set me free
cant think of anything
nothing,but you
break away and scream
get back on your feet
you may not be the tallest
but never stop trying to reach
nothing is too high for you to catch
if you could just learn to try
nothing is too hard for you
if you only knew how to grow

how could you treat me like this?
how could you leave me with all these misery?
how could you?
how could you?
you were my everything

you feel like your at the top
but the next thing your down on the ground
slammed hard right on the cold hard ground
you feel like u have nothing to lean on
no support to guide your way
if only you could wake up from this dream
and search for the answer

KIM'S WORDS:
1. SHINE LIKE A STAR, BE WHO YOU ARE
2. SPARKLE IN THE NIGHT
3. IT AINT DIFFICULT, IF ONLY YOU TRY
4. TELL ME IM A STAR
5. REACH FOR THE STARS!
6. GOD DIN FILL YOUR BRAINS WITH JUICES FOR NOTHING, USE THEM!
7. NOTHING CAN BE IMPOSSIBLE(ADIDAS GUY WILL B MAD AT ME)
8. YOU DONT KNOW HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME
9. I AM WHO IAM, DONT TRY TO TAKE IT AWAY
10. GIVE ME BACK MY SOUL, MY BODY, MY VOICE AND MY LIFE
11. TRY TO CLAP ME ANS I'LL SLAP YOU BACK TWICE.

11:15 PM

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Friday, May 13, 2005

GOSH.
EVERYTHING SHALL GO IN CAPS TODAY.
HULALAL.
APPARENTLY,THE WHOLE SCH IS HAPPY BCAUSE THEIR MID YRS ARE OVER.
NICE.AND THE PATHETIC SLUGS HAV TO MUG FOR THEIR MOTHER TONGUE
ITS NOT EASY TO MASTER U KNOW!
ESPECIALLY THE TONGUE'S IN MONSTER'S MOUTH.
AHHH!!!
SHIT.IM LAME AGAIN
SO TTS NORMAL.
HAHS.I DID PRETTY OKIE FOR MY PRELIM.
HEHS,62.75 I GOT A B4!!!!
AHHH.HAHAS.
BUT IT STILL ISNT GOOD.
I NEED LIKE AN A(:
HAHAS.
LETS WORK TOGETHER FOR THE NEWS ON TV TO SHOW SJC AS THE WHAT??
TOP TEN VALUE ADDED SCHOOLS IN SPORE.
HEHS.
CAUSE THEY HAV SUCH BRIGHT STUDENTS LIKE BOON(:

NEH NEH,
FRIENSTER SAYS TT MY MOTTO NOW IS
"LET AND LET LIVE"
EH,ITS 1230.AND MY BRAIN ISNT WORKING
WHAT DOES TT MEAN?HAHAS.
LIKE TAKE IT AS IT IS?
AHH...CANT!!!
I NEED TO STUDY HARD FOR CHIN LE!
AHH.
SHEESH,I THINK TT THE 10DAY MT PROGRAMME REALLY WORKS LE
BUT THE THING IS TT,I HAVEN STUDY
SO ITS NOT V MUCH OF ANY USE.HEHS
AND I DONT THINK I CAN REALLY SIT DWN N CONCENTRATE.
CAUSE FIRST,I GOTTA CLEAN THE TABLE.
THEN SHIFT THE BOOKS.
BY THE TIME I FINISH,
MY 'CHONG DONG' TO STUDY IS GONE.
IT HAPPENS ALL THE TIME

BEEN THINKING ABT ALOT OF THINGS LATELY
YOU KNOW,ITS REALLY SCARY HOW A PERSON CHANGES U KNOW.
SOMETIMES GOOD,SOMETIMES BAD
AND THE BAD PART IS FREAKY.
THEY KINDA CAN SO ALL SORTS OF THINGS TO GET WHATEVER THEY WANT
SCARY EH?BUT NVM,GOD WILL DO ANYTHING TO GET WHAT HE WANTS FRM THEM.
HEHS.SHIT,THE ROSSARIES ARE GETTING TO ME NOW.
SPEAKING OF THE PRAYERS,
U ALL KNOW TT MR CHIEW IS REALLY SLOW WHE HE SAY THE PRAYERS?
AND HE SAYS THE HAIL MARY,
"HAIL MARY FULL OF GRACE,THE LORD IS WITH CHEW"
EH,SOMEONE PLS TELL HIM ITS 'YYOOUU' NOT 'CCHHEEWW'
HEHS.THE MORNING JOKE WITH HUILING.

YEAH,FELT ALOT LATELY.
I MEAN,HELLO?3 1/2 YRS,THE TIME I SPENT IN SJC
WITH ALL THE PPL I MET N EVERYTHING I'VE SEEN
I'VE JUDGED,I'VE CRITICIZED
AND PPL DID THE SAME THINGS TO ME TOO
BUT I FOUND THE REAL ME.
IT WAS A LONG JOURNEY WORTH WATCHING AGAIN
IT WASNT ONLY THE SCHOOL,THE PLACES, THE PEOPLE N SOME TEACHERS
THE JOURNEY MAY NOT HAD BEEN NICE OR PERFECT
BUT AT LEAST I KNEW TT EVERYDAY WHEN I LOOK BACK,
I'LL SMILE AND SAY,TT WAS ME.
THE REAL ME.
I WAS ONCE MATERIALISTIC,NAIVE,CHILDISH,IN-SENSITIVE N BASICALLY ALMOST EVERY THING BITCH WOULD DO
AND I CERTAINLY FOUND MANY SHADOWS OF ME TOO
BUT IM JUS GLAD TT I FOUND THE REAL ME
AND IM NO LONGER TT KIMBERLY U KNOW IN SEC ONE
MY JOURNEY WAS GREAT.
BCAUSE I FOUND ME.
IF EVERYONE COULD SEARCH DEEP DWN INSIDE FOR THEIR ME.
EVEN IF IT ISNT COOL TO HELP AUNTIES DWN BUSES
OR CLEAR THE LITTER IN THE CANTEEN,
JUS DO IT.CAUSE THEN,U'LL KNOW TT'S U
WOULDNT IT BE GREAT
WELL,I CAN SAY IM QUITE A GOOD KID NOW RIGHT?
I DONT GET INTO TROUBLE LIKE I DO IN SEC1.
AND I FEEL,TOUCH,SEE,SENSE N THINK.
I DONT DO THINGS TT GO AGAINST MY OWN MORALES N PRINCIPALS N ALL THOSE U ALL CALL SHIT
THAT'S WHERE MY BLOG'S NAME CAME ABT
"IM REAL"
YEAH.CAUSE KIM KNOWS HERSELF WELL NOW
AND AFTER SHE UNDERSTND HER NEEDS N WANTS,
SHE BEGAN TO UNDERSTND OTHERS TOO.
HOW THEY THINK AND EVERYTHING.
WHICH HELPED IMPROVE THE RELATIONSHIPS WITH PPL
FOR KIM,IT WAS SOMETHG TT SHE TREASURED.
CAUSE SHE CRUSHED MANY WONDERFUL FRIENDSHIPS WITH HER OWN BARE HANDS
AND NOW,ITS A GIFT TT COULD HELP ME IN SO MANY WAYS.

EH,PAUSE.WHAT AM I WRITING?HAHS.

WELL,JUS THINK ABT IT.
ISNT LIFE LIKE A LEARNING EXPERIENCE?
MISTAKES LAID ON THE PATH,FOR YOU TO TAKE
AND U TRY TO UNDERSTND WHAT'S WRONG
N HAVE THE COURAGE TO SAY THE WORDS'IM SORRY'
AND HOPE N PRAY TT EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT?
ISNT TT WHAT LEARNING SI ABT?
IM STILL LEARNING TT TOO.
CAUSE IM ONLY HUMAN,IM BIASED
BUT TTS SUPER NORMAL.
IT REALLY TAKES A LOT FOR PPL TO BE PURE
JUS DO EVERYTHING RIGHT.
WELL,IM DEFITNITELY NOT ONE.
CAUSE I HAV TOO MANY MISTAKES N WRONG

BUT AFTER ALL,WHAT I FEEL FOR ISNT JUST MY GROWTH
BUT CERTAINLY MY FRENS TOO?
CAUSE WE’VE GONE THROUGH SO MUCH LAUGHTER,CRIES N ALMOST EVERYTHING
ITS LIKE UR A PART OF ME,AND IF UR TAKEN AWAY
I DON’T KNOW HOW I’LL SURVIVE
ITS LIKE IF U DON’T LET ME TAKE MY DAILY ROUTINE TO THE BBALL COURT
SIT N CRAP WITH THE WONDERFUL PPL I MET IN THE HORRIBLE SCH
I’LL FEEL WEIRD.
AND EVERYTIHNG ELSE
THEY’VE ALL BECOME MEMORIES
SINCE THE SECOND,THE MIN IT LAST HAPPENED
U JUS HOPE TT U CAN STORE THEM ALL UP IN UR BRAIN
SO U’LL THINK BACK,N SMILE.
FOR MAYB IF ONLY WE COULD TAPE IT DWN LIKE TT FREAK IN AMERICAN BEAUTY
WUN IT B WONDERFUL?
WHEN TOI ADDED THE TESTI ABT MISSING THE OLD TIMES
IT REALLY HIT ME, IT HIT ME REALL HARD

AM I GONNA LEAVE THIS DAMN OLD SCH WITH REGRETS TT I SHOULD HAV TREATED THE PPL N MYSELF BETTER OR
AM I GONNA LEAVE THE SCH WITH WONDERFUL MEMORIES AND NO REGRETS?
LOOKING FORWARD TO THE NEXT PATH OF UR LIFE?
WELL,IT ALL JUS COMES DWN TO URSELF.
ITS REALLY FUNNY TT IM TALKIN ABT THESE STUFF
CAUSE IM ALWAYS TAKING A STEP AT A TIME,
NO NEXT STEP?JUS FALL INTO THE POND
TT KINDA THING?
BUT I MEAN, JUS LIVE UR LIFE RIGHT.
LIVE IT WONDERFUL,GOOD,PERFECT,AND MOST IMPORTANTLY,
WITH NO REGRETS.

I HAD NO REGRETS MEETING KIM’S WONDERFUL FRENS
IT WAS REALLY NICE,
NEVER THOUGHT IT WOULD B THIS GREAT
BUT I’LL DEFINITELY WANNA HOPE ITS GONNA LAST FOREVER
CANT STOP THINKING ABT ALL THE TIMES WE HAD TOGETHER.

ITS ONLY HALF A MONTH LEFT IN OUR SECONDARY SCH LIFE
WELL,LETS ALL MAKE THE FULLEST OUT OF IT
LET GET REALLY GOOD GRADES.
THEN PARTY OUR LIFES OUT LTR
AND MEANWHILE,ENJOY THE COMPANY OF UR FRENS
AND WISH IT’LL NEVER END
‘GOOD THINGS ALWAYS COME TO AN END, BUT THERE ARE SOME TT DOESN’T’
‘SOME THINGS COME ONCE IN A LIFETIME,DON’T BLAME IT IF U MISSED IT’
SO LETS HOPE TT IT’S THE FRENSHIP TT I HAVE MADE IN THESE 4 YRS.
CAUSE I TREASURE EVERY MOMENT I SPEND WITH YOU ALL.
LET ME KNOW TT I WONT BLAME MYSELF FOR MISSING YOU.
LETS LEAVE WITH NO REGRETS,NO TURNING BACK, NO TEARS
YEAH,
I KNOW I WILL

SHEESH.WHAT WAS I THINKING ABT?HEHS.

12:41 PM

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