Monday, May 05, 2008
Okay, many would know that this blog is almost useless,
if you want to hear what really is bothering me, please just ask me
Just because of that, I think its time I record down how I feel and what has been creating an impact in my life,
So when I read back 5 years from now, I would still remember where I came from..
Oh well, cut the crap.
Today was the Celebration Dinner with the TCA faulty, TDT girls and 2 to Tango (only one)!
Had Japanese Buffet at Hanabi over at Katong Mall.
It was pretty funny that the host was unable to locate the restaurant when it was right before him.
Way to go Mr Tan, kidding (:
The food was alright, I guess the restaurant felt intimidated,
With that many fnb personnels and chefs, even CIA chefs dining at their private room
creating an enormous amount of noise pollution.
One clap to the girls for the thoughtful gifts while I selfishly watched Ironman with the man who is entering the NS.
We got Honey and a giant bow tie in GOLD for Mr Goh
We've got Mr Sim some Vitagen, only becuase he likes it and a bear sign
Mr Chia a pair of black socks and a smaller pair of pink socks
Ms Mark some special lacy stockings to shock the SSM kids
And Chef Joyce her favourite preserved tidbits and her Recycle bags!
The other chefs and instructors got very personalised cards as well,
Mr malik got his wooden van artiscally drawn by yours truly
Chef Fum had his envolope decorated with my fantastically drawn butterfly (in pink and purple)
Neo neo for having the most informal thank you msg I've ever written to an adult.
One Clap to TCA and her wonderful pool of experts!
The dinner ended in a high note, with the gifts all given and revealed to the gang
With many speeches that left us with tears welling up in our eyes.
Why like compo ah? I guess I'm getting prepared..
Chef Joyce came up with the golden question, where do you want to go for SIP?
And er... 2/3 of the table replied in a unison voice, MALDIVES!
All except for me, I thought long and hard, what was the reason that I wanted to stay in Spore?
Because I was afraid that I couldnt secure that job at LA in the near future,
because I didnt want to try out something else, I guess, 'boon's always feel comfortable in what they are doing.. OPPS.
Because I thought that I wouldnt last in hotels, and FO, without even giving it a shot.
Because I thought that leaving spore for that little pay was a waste of time, that I could earn 2 times more a month in spore.
Because I was convinced by the mother that staying in spore is good, probably because she couldnt afford sending me there.
Because there is a boyfriend serving the nation that I need to contact to each day
Because I was blinded by the fnb industry with all its fame and glory.
Like what chef joyce said, this 5 months is only the beginnning of our career in this industry,
how many people would die to be in our positions right now, (not many but a few...)
and we are all still young, this country is very small.
With its fnb industry, it is only growing, not moving at a fast pace, but it is growing...
What we have right now, LA as best rest, Iggy's as 77th best rest in the world, there are so much more in the world.
Eventually, one has to move out of this small country to seek new opportunities, like how Mr Chan travels the world just to help place his rest in a competitive edge, isnt it?
Living alone, without the comforts of home and the convenience of a lifetime maid (your MOTHER), is gonna be a challenge, a challenge to yourself and you only.
Ultimately, they would leave you to run your own family one day, and independence should be earned at any age.
If I dont leave the house now to try all these different jobs at different places, when will I do it?
After SIP? who would be so kind to offer you a chance like this?
In addition, what happened to all the childhood dreams of travelling to South Africa to volunteer and all those samaritan acts? Hello kimberly, who are you now?
Besides, this 5 months doesnt mean you are settled with whatever you've decided for 5 years.
If all else fails, I still can move back to my comfort zone.
Plus, this amount of experience will make me grow and learn more about this industry and myself.
Maybe the opportunity might slip by, but like what they say, one door closes on you, another opens.
I guess this is the time where I decide which door I would like to open.
Many a times, people are blinded by the offers placed before them, be it monetary or fame.
But what really matters is the experiences we learn along the way.
This FHA award really doesnt mean anything to anyone after it has passed by for a week, hasnt it?
Singapore expo was filled with excited people ystd, not for any fnb purposes but for the Metro sale, just the same as how our poise and flair will be forgotten within weeks, hours, even minutes.
How many people will actually remember what I did for Brandy Alexander? flair and all
How many would remember the milk bath?
How many would?
I guess, only the 6 of us and the whole TCA faculty.
That is the reason why we chose to stay humble about this win, because it was only something that we proved ourselves to be.
To be TCA standards and to show them what Old School ahve taught us.
This belief will stay with us for the longest of time.
As for SIP, I guess, this is the only chance that will be thrown my way
With the amount of experience thrown my way, I would be able to take the heat and literally, the heat from the island.
Hoping that I will not be very much affected by the culture and the standards of living,
I will be succesful with the application and come back stronger than ever.
I hope and pray that the decision is right, with them supporting me.
I'm sure it would.
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Told mum about OSIP, not very positive feedbacks.
Her first question was about the money, its okay, sell your LV bag and get 100 bucks lor.
Oh, and with much research I found out my LV bag is 14 yrs old, mum bought it in 1994!!
anyway, yes.
Monetary terms we are talking about.
With sister abroad travelling to a million places over Europe, it has certainly burnt a hole in their pockets.
Plus, she had a schloarship to support her overseas exchange prog,
now, what about me?
I couldn't even afford a toothbrush with the amount of money in my bank.
Let alone travelling expenses, living expenses, allowance and everything.
Not happy about me in the fnb industry,
not happy with me trying osip in hotels.
what more does she want from me?
I really do know what lies ahead for me,
I really dont want to take over daddy (god father's) chain of restaurants not worth helping..
only because its not entirely his.
like what krissy says, if a michelin restaurant offers her a job halfway round the world, she would go for it.
that is the amount of confidence and trust i need to have in myself,
but i know its impossible for my family.
To think that when I brought the gold medal home, no one freakking cared..
My daddy even asked if its a bronze, instead of a gold.
My ah ma thought that I was lying to her.
Great forms of encouragement.
Because everything I commit myself to in school, besides studies is crap to them.
I should just quite school and become a freakking accountant and count money in front of them to make them happy la.
oh well, i choose my own path, hopefully without much hesitation, my decision will stop swaying and I will be where I want to be.
9:47 AM
I love vintage & rouge-.
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