Tuesday, April 01, 2008
Here's something to blog about!
I am officially back from Penang.
It was pretty bad, nothing exciting,
I thought there would be nice lanscapes for me to shoot,
taking my photography skills to the next level but NO.
there was only a hill, many old houses, i can find nicer ones in spore
and the occasionally extincted items like the red public telephone
all in all, no entertainment.
ahhh, but this dish at the wedding dinner was nice, curry prawns in some french loaf thing.
and they call herbal chicken, TONG(silver) ZI(paper) YAO CHAI(herbs) ZI(chicken)
which actually meant aluminuim paper herbal chicken.
yakyak.
and there's soemthing wrong with my laptop, seriously.
all my documents are going haywire.
and i must complain, myfrekaiingggg portfolio i was supposed to hand in on friday was MISSINGG
so i had to rush it al out before i catch the bus,
thanks to exco, it was out!
love you guyss!!!
FO is coming, cant wait, but i dont want it to come.
you know that kinda feelings, new comes and old goes.
plus, its grueling 7 days okay? zomg.
i need red bullss.
Today was pretty bad, i guess?
If there was a word or two that could sum things up, that would be "mundane" or "moodless"
I felt practically useless, other than the saigang parts.
I cant help but feel sad and disappointed with myself.
Because since the beginning I knew I wanted to do this.
Since that morning in skills when they came to find me.
Its sad, the news was devastating.
But it was alright because I knew I didnt give in my best,
because if I did, things would or would not change, but at least I'd feel better.
I guess it'll take some time, a little while more for me, to get over it
Even though I have been hiding it real well, but today was just, pretty over the top.
And I've learnt that there are so amny things I know nothing of in service.
If there's a junior coming up to me, asking is service is difficult.
I would now say, "No, its not if you want to make it easy, but if you want to excel, thats when the hard part comes in"
Like seriously, how wasy is it to provide bad service, to anyone?
Simple right?
But tip top service? It takes years of practice and agilility, accompanied with experience to sniff the wine and tell what it is, or to look at an item and tell whats lacking, and even to taste whats too overpowering.
I am trying to achieve that.
And now, I am worrying.
Yar yar, what on earth am I worrying about right? I've got quarter of my ass covered.
Let me see, covered with... dreams and fantasy and nothing realistic?
Results and resume might be a thing in this industry, but there are so many factors that matter more.
and that is what many here lack, my results wont get me anywhere, so imfalling back on myself.
its tough, i know, i've heard and seen, and i dont care.
But the only worry now is, I've seen to lost it all.
My personality, charisma, flair and confidence.
Its diffcult to believe but as time goes by, I really realise that I've lost touch with me.
I mean, no offence but working at ritz wont get me anywhere near an OSIP or something else,
I dont even get to open a freaking wine bottle.
If you ask me to portion for 1000 pax, like hello? bring it on, with 9 other servers. (100 pax each la, that the max HOR. ahah)
but I love the love of my life for he always says,
"Every guest is a VIP", that's how I serve.
I know, all my friends say I worry too much about my future.
But I'm sorry, in my family, I have nothing to fall back on.
My grandmother's sugar cane store?
My mum's job at the airport?
My dad's job at Siahuat?
My uncle's construction company?
My uncle's past, with drugs and what not?
Or mayb, just maybe, daddy's chain of lamian stores?
the last one, probably.
but im not into it.
See, its not that I worry myself too much,
its just, you have to work out the path that you want to take,
no one can defy anything that you want to do, head for it.
Even now, in this line, there are so many areas to venture to.
and I am lost.
I need directions, I need directions alll the time.
So, I'm finding, I'm searching for where I belong.
Whatever's my calling, I know I want it
and I am going to put in my best and excel in it.
Meanwhile.. emmanuel, I pray and hpe you'll judge us,
So I can stand by the side and watch you.
HAHAHAHAHAHA. yucks.
yes yes, shut up.
there's trainin tmr,
go and find yourself, girl!
nownow, thought I wouldnt need to entertain all these anonymous thing after lets see.. secondary 1?
(rmb rmb?? hahah, we were so wierd back thenn... the names we called ourselves)
oh well, first, thank you to BIG random for helping me speak while i was away, please show yrself secretly. HAH
and to random, firstly, like i said, I didnt state that I was refering to daphne
secondly, this is my blog and i can say whatever i want, freedom of speech aye.
thirdly, that was merely a comment on the comparison between the rich and the poor or not so well off.
fourthly, there wasnt any name calling or insults or anything unworthy to put on my blog, so yes, I think the second paragraph of yr tag was pretty redundant.
fifth, I know how its like to have annoying people tagging anonymous posts and talking about things that do not concern them.
and I am not saying anything bad, plus, i remained the identity anonymous, as well.
mayb you would love to blame yourself for letting the cat out of the bag.
and erm, i certainly do not think that her getting a private blog is any of my concern since i am her friend alrdy? and it was the only way to keep pests away.
lastly, I love her and her blog and i would never do anything as stupid as leaving insulting posts or anonymous tags blabbering about her.
only jealous people do those kinda things, and i know you are only concern.
fear not because that post was not a jealousy post, it was more of envious
so yeah, you can rest assure on that, okay?
i would only need to seek your understanding on this matter.
thank you!
with a big smile,
:)
9:21 AM
I love vintage & rouge-.
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