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Monday, December 31, 2007

As the new year slowly creeps up to me from behind, holding the champagne glass, I could hardly believe my eyes, the big and eleborated words plastered on the television screen, "2008!"
It is the new year once again, and sadly, I feel no joy, no excitement, nothing..
Trying to recall what was the date today, 31st December 2007. The last day of the year, yet, I still could not feel a thing about the fact that 2007 is coming to an end, and I am moving on into a brand new year.
This could be a new year where I could learn from my mistakes, a time where I can learn how to love, a time where I learn how to cherish, a time where I learn how to focus and achieve what I really want in my life. But no..

There was nothing, no sense of remorse for the mean things I have said, for the sorrys I should have told, for being just so insensitive of me, for that past year. I felt nothing.
I shunder at the fact of how I have lose focus in life, where I pass a day at a time, with no aim nor motivation. Where I procrastinate and leave the job hanging. This is not me, and I refuse to accept the fact that this is me.

Looking back at the entries I have posted, all were nothing but masks for me to hide this hideous face. All but excuses, it was always them at fault and not me, it was always me on top and not democracy, it was all me, me, and me.
Im disgusted, I do feel disgraced by my own acts and words that pierced through the hearts of the ones I love so much.
Remorse, slowing creeping onto me, I broke down into a pool of tears.
Thinking of how ungrateful I have been, how angry I was, how insensitive, how bitchy, how rude, how arrogant, how I have evolved into the monster sitting here.
I have let so many people down, disppointed a dozen more, lost so many many more.
I dont want to hear anymore of acceptance and compromising from others, because its time I change.

Certainly, there must have been a few good things that have happened to me in 2007, without a doubt, I do recall.
As the world celebrates with parties and dancing, I sit here, facing the empty screen that seeem to reflect on how empty and shallow I am inside.
I solemnly pray that this new year will be a better year.
Learn to love,
Learn to speak,
Learn to think,
Learn to work.

As the quotes goes,
"God has given us two ears, but one tongue,
to show that we should be swift to hear, but slow to speak.
God has set a double fence before the tongue, the teeth and the lips,
to teach us to be wary that we offend not with our tongue."
-Watson, Thomas

Goodbye 2007, Welcome 2008, hopefully..

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Sunday, December 30, 2007

1 Japanese Sweet Potato and 2 Crystal Jade Char Siew Bao

im sorry the crystal jade had to come in, to make my dinner sound MORE glamourous.
can you believe it? that was all i had for dinner.
its 10 pm and i am still surving, not looking for food to eat.
serves me right, tummy not well.

all hail the calamari, sausage and overly dressed caesar salad Village had to offer.
but thank you nccl for the treat which went down the toilet bowl within erm.. 1 hour?
i still love you okay.

one love, centis, zilra, frytho, exco, su, loners gang, chij babes, pf 2007, and everyone else, so sorry for not spending the last and the first moment on 07 & 08 with you peeepssss.
P-R-O-J-E-C-T-S ARE KILLING MEEE!!!
AND if there's any tutors out there who are reading this, please reply the emails sent from your studetns because they are in desperate need of help and are dying in this period of stress and tension.
YES, REPLY PLEASEEE!!!
THANKYOUU!!
i sent so many mails, i only received one reply.
!@#%^&$

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Thursday, December 27, 2007

SEEE LA,
PROCRASTINATE
SOMEMORE LAA!!
_
NOW,
YOU
D-I-E!!

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Wednesday, December 26, 2007

HELLOOO EVERYONNEEE!!!

(ooohhh, someone just messaged on bananafleas!)

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!
yes yes, im still on that blog-selling-clothes thing
rather disheartened when this woman wanted one of the tops
and opted for meet-ups, but she just refuses to meet up.
pissedd the bananafleas out of me..
and told her by this week, she said she dont want it anymore.
ROARRRRRRR, annoying? irritating? tell me about it..

and other thing, my space bar is SPOILT.
itssonotsensitive,so i havetotype likethis the wholetime
canyouimaginehow irrtated i amwhenihavesomany reportsto complete?
SLAPME.
helphelpnayoneee?????
ROAR, imsoannoyed.


anyway, xmas was good.
5/7 of onelovewith loved one(s) (:
familyfinallysatdownforaXmasdinner
pizza hut and KFC, mum refused to let her daughter burn down her kitchen
ron and luff the YTB with the amazing video.
lastly, presents!
i got a scarf, purse, PA shirt alllllllltheway from genting, loads of candycanes, and...


MY SILVER IPOD NANO FROM MY SISTER & MIKE!!!
ohmyohmy (:
i love it! thank you mschew and mschong!!
thebestchirstmasever!

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Friday, December 21, 2007


yet another post, you ask me why?
thank you krissy for reading my blog and asks me to drink me more water, hohs.
*gropes nehneh, not letting go*

i have the sudden urge to edit all my photos in my folder, but i dont know how.
i have the sudden urge to pack and repack my room, but i dont have the space.
i have the sudden urge to ring up all my bestfriends to tell them i love them, but i dont... no excuses for that, so for that i told boon i love him and one love.
I'm estatic, christmas is here.
I'm dejected, I have no presents under the christmas tree.
probably cause I dont have a tree.
cough is killing me, bye!

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I probably need a new blogskin, this blogskin is like... old school.
but its done by maybelle, so yeah, i guess not huh?
1) she is a fantastic bombastic job on it (omg, the cheer -.-)
2) she is maybelle sua
3) she is probably as busy as me right now
4) she might never go out with me ever again.
HAHA! maybelle, I miss you so much and i want you here. please go out with me, will you?

you remember tiny words entry?
man, was i glad when senior said this about her,
"OHHH That one.. -shows that face- i dont really like her,
she's quite bitchy"
(well, i could put that word really big like large-big, but i chose to be like less mean and put is to size small)
oh i guess its an universal term to describe huh..

I dont know whats wrong but I dont seem to have a single cent with me when its 1 more week to allowance day.
It doesnt seem to get any better when mum gave me more, I seriously need to work.
need to work more, work hard, spend smart.
so this christmas, dont expect anything expensive from me.
(i was glad one love reccomended Daiso for choice of shopping venue)
but you know what could come in handy this christmas?


CHIRSTMAS WISH LIST

- 1 pot of gold
- 2 pots of gold
- 3 pots of gold
- 4 pots of gold
- 5 pots of gold
- 6 pots of gold
- 7 pots of gold
- 8 pots of gold
- 9 pots of gold
- 10 pots of gold
- okay, just find me the spot where rainbow ends


I NEED CASH DESPERATELYY!!!

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Thursday, December 20, 2007

HELLO EVERYONE!!

or probably one love and some sould out there,
please do welcome me back (:
3 days of camp was hell for me,
probably because Day 0 was spent with one love chilling all over the east.
Day 1 was when flu got the better of me, sniffing and sniffing
Dat 2 was more and more sniffing, also a feverish fever
Day 3 was totally fatigue and lesseer of the sniffing
that sums it all up really well.

To me, the camp wasnt that great but it could be better, because I do see the potential in the people who may affect it, no doubt, that includes myself.
So, im gonna spare you the details.
thank you Edwin for being my partner these past 3 days.
thank you Kahyuen for the panadols that really helped me stop blowing my nose
thank you to all FRYTHO/ FRYHTO GLs for constantly asking if i was okay and telling me its okay to rest (you guys understand more, so touched please)
thank you to everyone who made this camp possible, even if it was to pick the rubbish, lead a cheer, create a cheer, walked from SDC to swimming pool just for a pail or soemthing, packed 500 packets of food, got wet while trying to get seomone wet. thank you everyone!

But you know, the camp has its flaws and all, but I was glad everyone came together.
It seemed more like a bonding camp for everyone, including the MC.
hopefully everyone took the criticism constructively.
I was glad that I managed to survived reading all the notes, it was good.
Well, I really wanna thank everyone in the comm who made it happen,
camp comm, foodmin, log and prog!

But one thing that annoys me is the fact that everyone needs to experience being not sensitive to one's feelings before they start changing, I was like that too, cause 7 days was too much for me and i was kinda like grumpy.
But I dont know if everyone knows how to change or probably sense the unhappiness.
Because I was sure some people were not sympathetic or even didnt believe that I was really sick, not only tired, I was really drowsy from the cold and my head was really cramping up and every cheer my GL did was like a earthquake to me.. they passed off a nasty comment or give me a certain look and moved on.
It is sad, isnt it?
So, I guess that was why I really pushed myself so hard in the camp, probably the worst ever, and now I know how bad it was falling sick in a camp and it didnt help when we had to walk in the rain for 2 hrs.
the weather, tsk tsk.
I didnt even get a wink at Project Red Eye, cause I didnt dare be the only one who was resting, even though I was really dying inside.

Probably something like, "drink more water (suddenly thinking of psuan), or sit here for awhile la." that kinda thing..
Kim: oh well, you think everyone like your ma and pa ah?

dum dum dum,
today was Loner's Gang Xmas Gathering!
We had miso based soup as our steamboat, with pork, beef, mushrooms and tofu.
its all the basics because the bananas dont like vege, HAHA.
well, I had fun, drinking, watchin ben drink more, watching ben make flambe bananas, watching calisata scrub his sink, watching xx refrain from alcohol, watching myself spill wine TWICE (there goes my position in TDT...), watching siewmai's wine glass fly, watching jiamin wipe other peopl's table-instead of her own table at home..
yeah. that was it.
FUN FUN FUN!

okay, tired. im almost dead, i need to sleep more.
bye.

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Sunday, December 16, 2007

this is it, three days away from me love.
in camp, hot and sweaty with the almost crazy 500 lot
this camp might or might not be my last otc,
but it still means alot to me..
because this is the last otc i am gonna spend with the many yr3s who are leaving this year..
and i hate to say it, but i think im sad.. very sad..
glenn, maybelin, sarah, yuting, caleb, tomu, hairil, lionking, my ex GLs, my fellow GLs..
letsnot think about it until.. prob FOW/ FOC?
because i wanna cry all in one shot, all out.

i'll do my part to make this camp a wonderful one, with my FA partner (:
together with the rest of the MC, i hope and pray thate everyone, especially me, will keep a good work mind and also put ourselves in each other's shoes;
just so to make this camp a succesful and enjoyable one.

we can do this OTC MC/ SC/ CAMPERS 0708, we're gonna rock TP yet again!



PSST. ILOVEYOUCCL!

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Friday, December 14, 2007

F K.
fill in the blanks, would you?
if its true, i am so gonna kill you f k ing bitaatccchhhh.
where is your sympathy.
where is your heart, have it gone all bad and rotten.
brains, words and everything else wont give you a golden heart.
education, all gone to waste.
seriously, you f shithead.

omgomgomg, im sorry.

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hmmm, sometimes you need to love yourself for just that one minute.
1...58, 59, 60!

okay bye, that was then, this is now.
go sauna you pile of ghee!
TAG: I HATE MYSELF!

ahahahha, i think i need to rest.


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Goodbye Sock, have fun at cheeennnaaaa land!
please do get soem bucket bags home for the deprived kids yeah?

Goodbye ah meng, have fun at vietnam!
please do get some nice food back for the hungry kids okay?

OH WELL, was wondering what to talk about.
but yeah, its gonna be 2 men short for one love this holidays.
AWWMAN, will update so socker can read when she's back!
we spent like 4 hrs at a lok kok kopitiam jus chillin and chatting,
this is how loving one love can get.
but, we missed kenny today, OHWELL, MR CHONG, PLEASE DO TAG MY BOARD YOU HAVE NOT TAGED BEFORE AND THANK ME FOR ACCOMPANYING YOU ON WED NIGHT.

oh yes, the exciting part right now.
wednesday night was madness, you thought you'll get high with guys grinding you?
haha, TEHHHHH, so wrong.. i got so high when kri and junner came on me.
oh my oh my, i think i need to do something, to make sure im straight. HAHA.
*gropes ass, ahems.
okay, back to normal.
well, you know everyone in there.. its like animals let loose and horns all popping out.
what an eyesore, at times.
but i maintained my sanity.
arh, its just not the kinda lifestlye i would want to lead in the near future, so i guess its goodbye mambos, once in awhile prob?
ccl, come with me. HAH! love you baby!

today was 1st daya t wrk at Food for Thought, the best palce in town for a meal!
they have suchhh delicious food and all, i love it!
and guess what, i had like the sandwich for lunch all by myself!
enjoyable or what? no, it was so great i could have cleaned the whole cafe up before i knocked off!
they had lor neng (lu dan/ lor egg) with caesar salad, its efffing cool (:
come come, bugis mrt station, oppo library,
see you there people!
definitely something not worth missing (:

tension flies high, we stopped, snapped out of our trance.
glares at the alram clock on the table; 1:35 it reads.
why are we even awake, not for a better cause?
I dont know, for a moment, i was so angry i could have killed you
yet another, i feel the sudden urge to run to you.
whatever it is, I know its love.
Because its love thats why we got into this, its good and bad.
but still, its love.
and im blinded right now, because i dont want anymore questions or answers,
i just want you here tonight.

verdict, life hasnt been fulfilling since many yrs ago,
never felt like i belonged anywhere,
thank you to one love, for the love you've shone upon me
for making life such a enjoyable thing, for everything and anything you talk abt,
it'll make me laugh
it'll make me think
it'll make me cry
it'll make me a better person.
it'll make me learn to love my friends more.
thank you one love, the only love!

and also, i miss zilra and the rest.
kahyuen, i will always rmb the story abt the leopards cannot change the spots,
but they can alwasy try to show whatever else is better than the obvious spots protruding out.
they try, we try, at least we tried.
love you ky (:
see you campmates on monday!
welcome to my life partner high profile, you are so gonna suffer with me (:

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Monday, December 10, 2007

GREAT SONG (:
GREAT VOICE (:
HOT ARRSSEEEE (:

ICANNOTPOSTTHELINK, BUTWHOCARES, YOU CLICK YRSELF LAAA HORRR?
http://youtube.com/watch?v=ZTLwmLwZW68&feature=related

he's the singer in Enchanted, the part where the leads we dancing in the ball (:
that song is called so close, melts instantly pelasee.


After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
after all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’

; i wouldnt trade for anything else in the world, in exchange of you.

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Sunday, December 09, 2007

Friday was the meetup session with the other 5!
Its been a long time, we've come a long way.
daryl, suhui, freda, naz, xiang, thank you for the past 6 years!
many more years to come, with more and more outings yea!
its times like this, that reminds me how sane i was.
suddenly felt so nostalgic and all about SJC,
btw, we despise the school one, only love is Mr Tan Gim Chuan.
hohos, papa we love you!

Saturday was Cocktails with TDT people!
Perlin's egg broke, haha! and i thought she purposely put water in her container! -.-
Krissy's jingle bells jingle bells jingle all the way... was the cocktail of the day!
mygoodness, its freaaaaakkkkinnnnn nice (:
see, this is called effort!
mine is called what-the-hell-you-doing/ thinking?

went back compass and ate my popiah for lunch, alone, in kopitiam.
so pathetic right? thats cause the girls went to swim after school (:
i decided to put in effort and went library to borrow some bartending, culinary, dessert books!
went to AMK's ulu coffeeshop with family for dinner!
crabs crabs and more crabs! zzzz, damn ncie please!
it was as if each dish delevered was nicer then the last!
and mama cannot stop saying, "See, ask you call your ccl to come you duwan, the food so nice la!"
people have to work mum.
one love, we go there one day k! but waiting time DAMN long ah!

oh well, project today. alot but managable though.
its daddy's bday today! (:
but i forgot, feeling so guilty and upset the whole day.
saw him and gave him a bigggg hugggg today, he was so happy (:
i accompanied him thru his games and peeled an egg for him
i love you henry tan yang seng (:
thank you for being the best god-father every girl can ask for!
bighug!

Today, after I had my shower, I went into the room,
Naked I stood in front of the mirror and I thought,
'What's this pile of ghee doing in front of my mirror?'
; I need to looossss weeighttttttt

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Saturday, December 08, 2007



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OKAY! INJECTING SOME LIFE NOWWWW :D

okayla, i should start pending down whats bothering me underneath my table
im serious hor, if you manage to cross thru those piles of books from the doorway, to my table, look underneath, its where my true feelings show hor.
got meaning one, all the quotes.
one when i lost a badm match of my life, when i won, when i felt so maligned, when i wanted to fly.
HAHA -.-

anyway, wahhhh, socker's post was damn hilarious please.
and boonie's attempt to fold his white BERMUDAS so it wont get WET FROM THE RAIN!
meng's damn lok kok dressing, once in a life
socker's hiphop stlye that day.
krissy the everyday-can-see-her-bra, sometimes only laarrrr.
psuan and her ever so manly dresscode, (PSST! Please wear a dress one day, im longing for that day) (PSSSSST!! boonie, im so gonna get a pinky shirt for you for xmas! )
kennyyy.... told me hes leaving hse but reach class 1h 15 mins ltr. !$^@!
we miss you cann!!!
lingwei sharing her indian food cause psuan told her it will turn soft -.-
awhile wont die one laa.. but i happily ate away la.
gen and xue er.. damn funny lar.

please do read, thats why my days at sunny island is that exciting (:
Wednesdays with One Love!

hmmm, but i still miss kahyuen and the whole lot back home :(

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okay, i need to inject more life in my life
okay, i need to inject more laughter in my laughter
okay, i need to inject more love

im not greedy you know, you know at times where you seem to look at things and judge yrself from another's point of view, after you do something or say something?
Yeah, i get that feeling all the time, and most of the time,
im disgusted.

im disgusted by how disgusting i can get
im amazed by how wierd i can get
im astonished by how intitiative takes over, both good and bad
im petrified by how horrifying words may seem
; devious

some people think i'm too diffcult on myself, i worry too much, i take things too seriously.
because i am serious about life, no point living life like theres no meaning at all.
because there is, thats why i opt not to get wasted and all, not that mama allows la..
but yeah, its all about improving yourself,
for yourself, for your friends, for your loved ones, for everything that is changing without you.


guess it all comes down to my fav quote:
"Always work like you dont need the money,
Always fall in love like you have never been hurt,
Always dance like nobody's watching
& always live like its heaven on earth"
-Mark Twain
thank you loners gang for the accompany and hargaos
thank you one love for the daily dose of love
thank you ccl for understanding
;i need to be more magninimous, the magnitude of my ego outweights the magnitude of grace.
talking about things wouldnt make things happen unless you do it.

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Thursday, December 06, 2007



tell me you dont love this pic, im so gonna beat you up.
HAHA!
arent they adorable?
thats regina and cedric, god cousin and god nephew (:

i think i should act feminine nowadays ah? im so rough please.
OHWELL :D
wrk wrk wrk wrk wrk, so much wrk :(

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Monday, December 03, 2007



Counts, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7!!
the blatant innocence of a child displayed through epitome of love.
oh my, what am i typing these days?
this is one love.
or rather, i hope it will be! (:
but we will be.
sorry i am talking about it so openly again
but i really miss them like helllaaalottt..

well, sometimes i really do hate myself for being who i am, so in-the-face
at times, not sensible and logical thinker. and what not.
but i really thank them for accepting who i am
and for the 1001 times that make me realise how selfish i might even be.
its times like this, they dont even realise that they allow me to achieve this self actualisation.

one love, forever!

hmmm, today was 3rd week at TTT for ops.
well, you know, week 1 was sous chef, week 2 was cold kitchen
& just when i thought that i could mannage some counter for the last week..
TEHHH, i was kept in the cold kitchen again man.
but oh well, chef desmond did make it clear tt we dont get what we alwasy wanted huh?
still, found it so hard to believe that i am the only one who haven touched the stove yet.
that is so depressing..
but think of the bright side, i still do get to like take up responsibility and 'head' the kitchen (for awhile before chefs came in to help (: )
so yeah, guess it wasnt that bad?

but i couldnt hold back how unjust i felt, when i was slicing those tomates, i sliced my palm so many a times.
ohwell, it woke me up that working as a team means sacrificing what you would want to do and to d what needs to be done.
and im glad i did, cause i did caesar salad, mise en place, dessert and everything cold (:
roars, and i had nice ppl to work with, what more can i ask for? :D
yeah, i just needed ot rant this out cause i seem like the only onennot knowing whats gg on man.
but thanks to chef desmond for asking why i was so gloomy,
hello uncle desmond, you know please, why still ask?
BUT I REALLY DO UNDERSTAND.
thanks chef for the countless attempts to make me laugh, HAHA.
it made them laugh instead, try harder next time laaa.

so, pastry next, we all heard stories here and there.
shring session w girls at the locker's room helped everyone familiarise with the other chefs..
i feel it man, we are bonding. HOHO.
and i certainly don mind when tiffy talked abt us all lying on top/ bottom/ left/ right ard her.. HAHA.

its 1 am, ttb is tmr at 2pm and i have more or less not started.
all the best kim. omggg.

colourful to you!


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Sunday, December 02, 2007


im afraid of balloons,
but if you gave them to me,
i wouldn't mind
(:
but you might need to consider
cause i might bite your nehneh off

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Saturday, December 01, 2007

i serecetly hate people who make me feel so stupid.
i need to read more books.
mayb i'm suffering from dyslexia.
ahem, coughs.

cannot deny that i feel uncertain at times

i secretly despise people who are such great examples of narcissistic.
i feel like bursting that inflated mind of self indulgence.

i secretly hate myself at times for being incestuous at times, haha!
lets not show examples okay? (:

i secretly hate people who worships PSA, but haiyahhh...
CCL, hello and i love you.

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Hello everyone.

Today, is quite a long post.
So bear with me alright?

NEL Gang have been officially changed ot One Love Gang,
with the consensus of the 4 females, (cause only 7 ppl, HAHA!)
SO, PEOPLE, WE ARE CALLED ONE LOVE OKAY?
you know, now kenny have becomed clever and learns how to TAG,
someone shld really let MINSONG know, you know?
thanks.
HAHAHAHA *blasts hokkien songs to catch meng's attention*
and i wanna let big boobs mama KRISSY, ice cold BOONIE, manly sexy PSUAN, loveable SOCK, savable KENNY and bengzx MINSONG, know that i really treasure the roadtrips we have, the love we share and every moment i spend with you people, is a happy moment (:
Thank you for taking all the troubles away and being one of the few people i can love and trust!
ROAR, THIS IS NOT A HI-BYE FRIENDSHIP, ITS HERE TO STAY!
I'LL BE THERE FOR YOU, WHEN THE RAIN STARTS TO FALL
I'LL BE THERE FOR YOU, IF YOU'RE THERE FOR ME TOOOOOOO!! (:

Hint: I'll keep my promise of having many many guest rooms in my future house alright? WAHAHAHAHAHAHAH :D


Yijie, Ronald and Luffy, tell me, where else do i find nice people like you?
Helping the very screwed up us to comeplete the video within 48 hours.
kudos to you, seriously.
i dont even know what o say to you when i see you guys so seriously at work but i am more occupied with whatever that is troubling me.
My sincere apologies and i really appreciate the effort you put in the video!
I really hope this video will get the approval of Esplanade and that you can add this very impressive project to your portfolio.
THANK YOU A MILLION TIMES AND ITS NOT ENOUGH!!
SO WE ARE GONNA TREAT YOU TO LIKE... NICE FOOD!!
THANKS ALOT PLEASEEE!!!! ROAR.


You know how people tend to run away from a problem because they have such big egos they dont want people to know about it?
Yes, i am like that.
But I am not gonna hide anymore today.
You think being a President is the most prestigious thing in this organisation?
Well, I guess so? With all the invitaitons to events and all the people knowing who are you, and the list goes on and on..
But you all dont see the hard work that my team and i put in.
Seriously, it is nto easy managing 200 odd ppl all the time, need we say more to try n please all the students in TP?
But you know, this is what we have expected when we first thought of running for elections.
But the thing is, and i know ppl are reading, i am gonna let you know that being presidnet is not easy at all.
And I am constantly suffering from people watching me so closely like they gonna snap at my face whenever i do someone 'not preseident-y'
like come on, being presidnet doesnt mean that i still cant be the same old kimberly chew right?
but it certainly do come with alot of power, responsibility, time sacrificed and work. its something we cannot hide from and i am not
I can very proiudly say that I have not MIA-ed or anything, and whenever i am not present for meeitngs (2 meetings in fact), i am really sick and unwell.
I have been there all year doing my job, signing my documents. If there are anything i've missed out, i apologise. Even thought its nto that good, i still feel i accomplised that part of my job.
well, i wanna say that i am suffering really badly from all these watchful eyes of the people.
all the 'expectations' that they have setted in mind for the president.
come on, everoyne is different, everyone have different expectations.
My principle is that I cannot let Union affect my school, family and friends, and so, if i feel that i have done my job, without compromising anyone else, then im okay.
But I dont deny that I have done that perfectly well because i suck at time management, so yes, after the talk with GLENN SANDHU, i really am gonna make up for lost time and contact with whatever and whoever i have not been with.
Im sorry Union, Family and Friends. and most importantly, all my homework waiting for me..
This expectations thing really made me shun from the lights and watchful eyes of all the people, because i hate being watched.
That is probably why i dislike going to the ----- that much, because i HATE people saying, "eh.. you are the presidnet of TPSU.. you shld... you cannott... you must..." like seriously, get a life la! I really do know what Im doing.
I dont think His Excellency gets that all the time as much as I do? I do think that he does have a time of his own where he lets loose huh?
liek seriously, i tried all year to ignore that phrase, but hellooo??
did you try NOT to use that phrase on me? i dont think so.

But after this whole chunk of banana crap i have longed to type, I am letting it go.
To let all the people with all this expectations thing they have on me, that i am happy you do, because it shows that you are concerned abt how i am doing, and i learn from that as well, i appreciate.
But the thing is, I am gonna do it my own style, my own way. So, if i feel its not enough, i am gonna catch up. So yes, I really wanna you know that all those labelling will nt me or you any better.
It still comes down to what you do at the end of the day, and what people actually see you doing.
So, dont come label that i am not doing a good job and all, i know i am not the bset that you can find, but really, heck what people say about you and do what you feel is the best. isnt that what living is about?
now, its not too late to let it out and move on, because there's still like 4 months more. whether i am in exco or nt nxt yr, SU will still be in my heart and i will go all out for you/ it/ her/ haiyah, union laaa.
THANK YOU, TP OEI!


Okay, sometimes you feel like choking this particular person because work delegated is not done? Especially so when you have no right to do it, no level of authority allows you to do it? Okay, we feel it that way. But still, it acts as a reminder how NOT to become like them.

And it hurts me so much to see a fellow co-worker feels do depressed over the treatment another is giving? Like, you said it a million times, we are a team, then why arent you acting like a team player? Listen to what people has to say, and not snap.

7:12 AM

I love vintage & rouge-.


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