Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Hi.
Dont ask me what am i doing at 2am at the dashboard when i have school at 730 tmr morning.
because i am tired, but i am not sleeping.
I hate people who cant seem to put on weight no mater how much they ate.
Because my waist seemed smaller, oh wait, im sorry, its because my hips seemed BIGGER.
I hate people who masters the art of photoshop.
Because I simply dont knw how to use that stupid but inteligent shit, comeeonnn amos, pass me the disc, photos are my life.
I hate people who can take nice photos with those CANON or FINEPLEX, like wow, big nice black cams that can shoot 5 pics in 3secs or some sort.
Because my sister's bf bought her one for her freakin' birthday and I would be sitting there admiring it.
I hate people who listen to Hey There Delilah and think about the bad times.
Because, sometimes I find myself doing it.
Probably like now, and it totally spoils the song I love so much.
Please stop.
Because I want everything to work out
Becasue I want everything to be beautiful
Becasue I want everything to fine
Because I have only 24 hrs a day and its so diffcult to please everyone.
Because I am pissed at the internet for deleting my previous angry post.
Because I feel so sad and lonely I dont even know who to turn to
Because I feel so happy that I have ya'll by my side, I get so confused whether it could be a blessing in disguise.
Because I know this is the best that I can give and all that I can give.
Because I feel so away from everything and everyone I dont know whats going on.
Because I think its post mensural syndrome
BEcause I think its because I wont get to see baby for 4 days
Because I alwasy thought that it was a mutual thing, I dont tell people how much I love them, or rather, to REMIND them how much I do
Because I think everything shouldnt start with a "I", instead a "WE"
But I dont even know if there was a WE in the first place.
Because I feel so insignificant like the cable without the TV
Like the lightbulb without the lamp, like the sea without the sand.
Like bread without kaya, i love kaya.
Thats why I get so excited everytime I see NEL gang around
Thats why I treasure every single moment with them because I know how fun they are.
Thats Why I treasure everyone of them because they somehow got me when i was so down.
Thats why I would die just to have my days back with my girls in year one.
Thats why I would pray every night for the days back when I didnt have so much responsibilities.
Thats why I would think about days last semester where I had so much fun with my clique and looking after mason and wilson like a motherhen.
Thats why I would dream of those days with centis or zilra because the love was beyond words.
Thats why I will think about sjc and the sisterhood we all share, the tears sweat blood and pain we shared in the badminton team.
Because they seemed to have disappeared.
Because I think about how we have distanced, no.
Correction: I think about how I seem to have made myself distanced away from everyone and everything.
Right, de l'autre côté de Secourir?
I guess so.
Dear God, Can I buy time? I dont mean to be greedy, just let me spend one more minute with everyone I love, I would be a happier girl.
Baby, think only of the good times.
I will always always remember that.
im happy, im really happy now.
but I will pray every night for that everday to come true.
guess its goodnight.
9:47 AM
I love vintage & rouge-.
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