Sunday, June 24, 2007
meow :)
I am back from TPSU Retreat 2007, it has indeed been the most tiring 2D1N stayover at the lounge ever, but what's most important was that all of us were able to return home feeling better about ourselves and the team.
I had more than 13 reasons to cry throughout the 2D1N stayover. and my eyes were all puffy and tired on the way home.
Well, i am very happy the team were all bonded and stuff, trash talks, family problems, hwo they prioritise their committements and all.
it was really good and all of us undrstood one another better, comethg words cannot describe.
but i am sure, we all walked out that door feeling great about this committe, it will be different, it will be tighter, closer and stronger.and we will rmb that night, forever and ever.i'll cry if i think of it at FO.."but if you want to cry..." BASKET KNOW THOSE PEOPLE :DThe team also took time off from the retreat to watch the Polite DragonBoat race.
girls got first, guys got third. :D
when i see how nervous those who've left the team, i realise how little have i contributed to the team.
other than being the sluggiest one, but the one who makes the effort to dip in.
but i was like nothing compared to them.
but somehow, i feel there's a part in me that still wants to be in the team.
when i turn back, to see those 12 familiar faces all wearing the white SU polo tee, and i thouht about what happpened last night, i realise that's life.
you make choices to go wherever you want to go, to do whatever you want to do.
i really wanna wear that lifevest and be one of the 12 there, but i know i cant now. cause i've chosen to stay onshore to organise Regatta.
i really miss rowing, but we can always go row.
mat, dee, manda, sam, jiamin, brandon, ryan, kok..
but i am sure we never will forget what (little, for me) we went through together as a team.
and the whoosh thing triggered the tears, i rmbed my first whoosh, just anyhow blabber, they know its me. so funny la.
but still, congratulations girls :D
you deserve all this, pushing beyond yr limits, surviving evrythg. you are the best! one boat ahead :D
and this girl, she's my mentor, motivator, friend, teammate.
serene chong, thank you for always being there when i needed help.
you were always supporting me for pull ups if you could
you were always doing gym with me, pushing each other to go further
you were always telling me my strokes are not right, "kim, check yr stroke"
you were always motivating me, telling me that i was doing good
you were always the one to get suan with me cause left side very heavy
you were always the one to eat brownies or what at work
you were always the one to get suan-ed with me cause we wear L -.-
you were always the one i went home with, after work, trn or anythg
you were always the one i talk to at the roadside till 2am
you were always there to stop and smile and say hi and hug.
thank you serene :)
i will rmb what i promised you that day at cca awards, you must rmb what you promised me as well okay?
thank you for saying that
you won the race for me, you know how much i would want to be there.
thank you, congratulations on winning your race.
i love you, my favourite left rower :D
you disspoint me, you said you wont go back there, but you still did. i thoguht i couuld go back and have a good rst after retreat and what happened at retreat. but you made em cry more when i saw you. i really love you mum but can you stop? you show signs that we are not financially oaky to spend liek how i used to, i stop. you tell me i go home late, i try not to, i rush home if i could jsut to disturb you. you tell me you dont ahve enough for me to pay my miscellanous fees, i pay them myself.
so dont make this even more difficult, for you, for me, for our family.
it doesnt really help when you have a dinosaur who doesnt really care much, but will just use the consequences to shoot you back, onyl when it happeneed
it doesnt really help when you have a sister who doesnt communicate with you unless she needs help.
but i thank you for talking to me when i felt so lost, thank you nicky.
and i thank yuting and glenn who took rolls and rolls of toilet paper for me while i cry and they smelling my nice-smell hair.
jean asked who wanted to be in the performance crew, i raised up my hand, and i told my team i wont perform, i dont know what to do.
the desire to perform onstage is so overwhelming, i just did what my heart told me and not my head.
you stared at me with those hateful eyes, im sorry it had to turn out this way. i know whatever i say is of no use, but it takes two hands to clap. im sorry my friend
arent thy favourite word was the J, crimson red thy heart spurred blood.
magnificent powers and acts of God, took away the soul but gave me Night :)
12:30 AM
I love vintage & rouge-.
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