Sunday, June 17, 2007
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yeah, welcome back, after how many donkey years?
nothing in mind now, just came back from Zilra's chalet.
had a long talk with Kahyuen about faith, and all.
shall not go into detail and i realise how much i miss CHIJ SJC.
the mass, presence of God, morning prayers, meal prayers, school dismissal prayers, Father, Hymms and all.
Basically, i miss the IJ love.
From the rebellious, arrogant, ignorant girl to who i have become today.
From trying to act cool by modernising the uniform, to appreciating what our ancestors have brought tp us.
From trying to make fun or run as soon as dismissal prayers were done, to patiently and saying the prayer wholeheartedly.
From thinking that what i had in life was li suo dang ran de shi, to appreciating what i have till its gone
IJ life really taught me how to love, care and trust others, like how the thousand odd girls trusted me.
Ij really taught me how to be a better person, something my parents would not ahve taught me
they taught me how to work as a team, how to go beyond my limits, how to think about a million things that wont concern me.
I know God was watching over me and i have faith in Him that what i worked hard for will come my way.
I dont know, its just, i feel lost right now.
I still look at the quotes and stuff outside St Anne's Church everytime 372 goees pass, it feels like a stranger to me now, because i used to look at the same quote every day until they change a new one for 4 years.
and i could memorise them at heart, and use them to advice my friends and all. No, its different now, i feel lost.
you know, after all this, it all sparked off when someone asked me what are you going yo do now, i didnt have a definite answer, and in the past, i know i would.
and anthoer incident, if you really wanna know how i feel, just read entry on November 1 2006. only that its another person and i wasnt as angry as i were, but if it continues for another lets say, 3 weeks? Man, i will chop - head off.
yes, i am not happy.
but you know, life is unfair, you dont always meet people you want to meet. but why d i have to handle one of such kind EVERY DIFFERENT SEMESTER IN SCHOOLL??? WAHLAO.
oakybye.
9:56 AM
I love vintage & rouge-.
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