Saturday, June 30, 2007
this was what i got when i did the word word thing on Sarah's blog
K- Kinky
I- Intelligent
M- Masculine
B- Brutal
E- Energetic
R- Radiant
L- Legendary
Y- Yum
like what the bbq is 'yum'?
and thank goodness dictionary.com did say masculine is for guys and girls, cause the next search was, 'gender of male'. wahlao.
and whats with 'brutal'?
R is correct cause i use olay, radiance from the skin!
haha -.- okay, im lying lar, i used olay once only.
and why 'kinky'?
one of the search said, "describing sex, kinky sex'
WHATT THEEE BBBBBBQQQQQQQQQQQQ!!!!!!!
okay, so not nice.
TPSU Subcomm Camp is a really really happy occasion for all those who've went, i hope. i know Alcyon did!
Thank you cheeky subcomms for the, "FAs, we love you" and everythg.
my heart is melting!
and we know you guys are the most independent empire who might perform even better when there's no FAs ard, cheeky right?
thank you for making my time in the camp so enjoyable even though we were v busy and all, thnks for understanding :D
never been this low in my entire life, cause i was a bloody slacker in sec school la. now i feel the heat, i guess everyone does, but it depends on yr own breaking point. and some people just dont break (wahlao, unfair). and some jsut have all the faith in the world, and some have a compass in them that'll show them the direction they have even though they're lost. i tihnk for me, when im down or anything, the best thing is to talk to me. but when im pissed or angry, just lt me cool dwn because when you talk to me, i will burst. and i would be trying to control my emotions then. (i just realised how diff i am from others because mum was vexed, i asked her whats up, she showed me black face, then granny called, she just kinda like AHHH when she put dwn the phone. guess, that was her breaking pt)
but i think what is wierd abt me is, when im really down deep deep down, i cry and scream and yell, but after a long sleep, im back up again. prob thats how i climb back up after losing a match, but i dont train now, so losing seems like a diff thing to handle, and faith goes away with it. i should join back badm hor? okay, GO! hah! :)
but still, '
dont lose the faith so easily, as He never will lose His, when God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.' I trust Kahyuen, and she helped to bring me back on track with just one simple sms. Thank you girl.
and like what I always tell friends, "when you are at the bottom, the only way is to go up".
i give you 12 people my word that i will climb up, one step at a time, and i will leave those footprints of my own, not in the footsteps of another person. i love it here, i want to stay.
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Thursday, June 28, 2007
meow
time check: 1459
what's happening today?
1700 BSC AGM
1800 TPSU SUBCOMM CAMP
shout shout scream screm
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1100 TTO TEST (haven study yet)
1800 BREAK CAMP
meow, no dance class today :(
meow, study TTO please!
i ____ _______ _____ ________.
will ____ ___ ______?
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meow.
after i bathed, which was after i pulled myself from bed after reaching home.
i read my inbox, handy says 17 new messages.
i ead my inbox, gmail says 16 new mails.
can i like faint right now?
;when the going gets tough, the tough gets going.can i not be that tough for a day?
can i not be that tough one all the time?
being in the position who yuo have to be the toughest, the hardest, the best, or what their perception may be.
sometimes i jsut need to breath.
and sometimes, even the passion wont keep it going.
this is where people break, they quit.
so for my friends out there, rushing projs, setting up for AGM, sub comm camp, family friends, all those 101 tiny things that'll aggitate us like we're some freaking hot volcano, i am now.
lets all just HANG IN THERE ALRIGHT?
everything will be over soon..
lets show them how impossible is possible, how imperfection will be perfection and how guiness will be greatness.
haha, not funny. -.-
RAWRR!
i have three projects not done, 4 topics tested on sat, AGM, TPSU work, all not done yet and every tiny thing you do will make me burst right now.
but like what ah goh said, 'panicking will not help you anyway'
so im not breaking or panicking.
meow.
jingwen and i saw a dead cat on the road on the way back form RPSU's AGM :(
meow meow, rest in peace, im sorry we cant remove your body from the middle of the road cause its in the middle of the road and i am very scared as well. i pray, i pray.
RAWRRR.
i had service today.
served table of 26 graduated '85 students form tp HTM.
well, not much of challenge, just that they tend to run here run there.
feel like pouring hot coffee over them when they moved when i poured coffee la. like PURPOSELY. but ya..
meow, what Sooling special, mr goh was damn crappy today.
and the people bought CHEAP WINE and he was like giving me the
one-raied-eyebrow plus irritated look.
and that same look again when i dropped the spoon.
DAMN HILARIOUS LARR.
i still dont understand why they treat the glasses like 50 million bucks worth of glasses.
when we like anyhow anyhow (clang without ppl ard) in iggy's. -.-
then this fellow amongst them came up to ken and i and asked if we're interested to go overseas for SIP.
say hes from fourseasons and all, if we want we can. blah blah blah
and didnt leave his name, his contact, so i can confirm he is a small fry or almost fried.
but its good to get compliments :D
but they is a bunch of cheehong fellows, cassandra had to refill alot of iced water. :D
and one girl is like damn hot, she was wearing a white tank top, tucke dinto her jeans with her 3 inch heels and an Ed Hargy cap.
ultimate bimbo, ultimate bitch, sure the one everyone hates.
and yeah, she onyl took photos with the GUYS and she sat on his lap.
and she didnt had anyone to engage in a conversation with. :(
but, is hot.
and and, Mr Sim was damn funny, he's like influenced by my meow and maomao,
cause the banana people brought cheap wine and had t use our wine glasses which were so ex and were for wine tasting
so we went to tasting studie to wipe the glasses before serving. meow.
i was like damn irritated, i kept on telling him,
"Mr sim, cannot la, alot of
mao mao cannnn!!!"
he keep on saying nvm nvm, like they know how to taste wine like that
HAHA -.-
then after that when we washed and all, he told me to wipe dry.
bloody crew used up alll the cloths, so i couldnt find la.
then i found this whole new pack of cloth at the private rooms!!
was so bananafied i shouted form salt n pepper to him at the bar, asking if we can use la
then he shouted back, "Huh, new ones? Dont want la, the new one alot of
mao mao."
then he pauses, "alot of fur"
WAHAHAHAHHAHA, i laugh at him then i went back man
laughs, i am influencial.
those are the reasons why i love service class, no books, no rules, just technical.
meow.
meow.
i is happy even though im so tired and on the verge of giving up.
i is happy even though im so tired i fell onto my bed instead of bathing
i is happier even though my proj deadlines are up but im not done yet
because i _____ ______ _____.
(haha glenn, all the same, see how you guess!)
meow.
okay, how now brown cow, i is die now.(love green!)rhymes. -.-
2D1N sub comm camp awaits me tmr,.
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Tuesday, June 26, 2007
meow!i have nothing much to say, shows the bloop bloop face.
but today was te first time i used the cubicle in the guy's toilet!
Hakim and Edwin la, say wanna go home but they were taking photos and all at design.
and i needed to pee badly, so i went to the guys' one la.
i was so scared of
'xiaoming'(the design ghost) that i shouted Edwin's name everytime they stopped talking.
meowi met the RockClimbing captain today, he introduced himself as Izz.
and i happily didnt ask how to spell cause i thought i was in spell cast.
so when i was saving his name, i typed in "ROCK".
thought its damn bad, so i tried ot spell his name la.
but i couldnt make out the words! so i just typed "YEAST"
and he just msged me to tell me how to spell it, its "IZZ"
what the bananas, damn funny.
and and,
i am ______________.
because meow dont blah blah meow.
i ____ ________.
okay, back to more BESE report formating, research for SSM, study BESE, study TTO... im damn busy i swear.
MEOW :(
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Sunday, June 24, 2007
meow :)
I am back from TPSU Retreat 2007, it has indeed been the most tiring 2D1N stayover at the lounge ever, but what's most important was that all of us were able to return home feeling better about ourselves and the team.
I had more than 13 reasons to cry throughout the 2D1N stayover. and my eyes were all puffy and tired on the way home.
Well, i am very happy the team were all bonded and stuff, trash talks, family problems, hwo they prioritise their committements and all.
it was really good and all of us undrstood one another better, comethg words cannot describe.
but i am sure, we all walked out that door feeling great about this committe, it will be different, it will be tighter, closer and stronger.and we will rmb that night, forever and ever.i'll cry if i think of it at FO.."but if you want to cry..." BASKET KNOW THOSE PEOPLE :DThe team also took time off from the retreat to watch the Polite DragonBoat race.
girls got first, guys got third. :D
when i see how nervous those who've left the team, i realise how little have i contributed to the team.
other than being the sluggiest one, but the one who makes the effort to dip in.
but i was like nothing compared to them.
but somehow, i feel there's a part in me that still wants to be in the team.
when i turn back, to see those 12 familiar faces all wearing the white SU polo tee, and i thouht about what happpened last night, i realise that's life.
you make choices to go wherever you want to go, to do whatever you want to do.
i really wanna wear that lifevest and be one of the 12 there, but i know i cant now. cause i've chosen to stay onshore to organise Regatta.
i really miss rowing, but we can always go row.
mat, dee, manda, sam, jiamin, brandon, ryan, kok..
but i am sure we never will forget what (little, for me) we went through together as a team.
and the whoosh thing triggered the tears, i rmbed my first whoosh, just anyhow blabber, they know its me. so funny la.
but still, congratulations girls :D
you deserve all this, pushing beyond yr limits, surviving evrythg. you are the best! one boat ahead :D
and this girl, she's my mentor, motivator, friend, teammate.
serene chong, thank you for always being there when i needed help.
you were always supporting me for pull ups if you could
you were always doing gym with me, pushing each other to go further
you were always telling me my strokes are not right, "kim, check yr stroke"
you were always motivating me, telling me that i was doing good
you were always the one to get suan with me cause left side very heavy
you were always the one to eat brownies or what at work
you were always the one to get suan-ed with me cause we wear L -.-
you were always the one i went home with, after work, trn or anythg
you were always the one i talk to at the roadside till 2am
you were always there to stop and smile and say hi and hug.
thank you serene :)
i will rmb what i promised you that day at cca awards, you must rmb what you promised me as well okay?
thank you for saying that
you won the race for me, you know how much i would want to be there.
thank you, congratulations on winning your race.
i love you, my favourite left rower :D
you disspoint me, you said you wont go back there, but you still did. i thoguht i couuld go back and have a good rst after retreat and what happened at retreat. but you made em cry more when i saw you. i really love you mum but can you stop? you show signs that we are not financially oaky to spend liek how i used to, i stop. you tell me i go home late, i try not to, i rush home if i could jsut to disturb you. you tell me you dont ahve enough for me to pay my miscellanous fees, i pay them myself.
so dont make this even more difficult, for you, for me, for our family.
it doesnt really help when you have a dinosaur who doesnt really care much, but will just use the consequences to shoot you back, onyl when it happeneed
it doesnt really help when you have a sister who doesnt communicate with you unless she needs help.
but i thank you for talking to me when i felt so lost, thank you nicky.
and i thank yuting and glenn who took rolls and rolls of toilet paper for me while i cry and they smelling my nice-smell hair.
jean asked who wanted to be in the performance crew, i raised up my hand, and i told my team i wont perform, i dont know what to do.
the desire to perform onstage is so overwhelming, i just did what my heart told me and not my head.
you stared at me with those hateful eyes, im sorry it had to turn out this way. i know whatever i say is of no use, but it takes two hands to clap. im sorry my friend
arent thy favourite word was the J, crimson red thy heart spurred blood.
magnificent powers and acts of God, took away the soul but gave me Night :)
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Thursday, June 21, 2007
meow, hello world!
I just finished my mango sorbet and i am smiling to myself for some reason :D
Today, we will be talking about Politics and my Mother.
Seriously, why must there be politics in an organization or at any place where you work? They can survive without politics, im sure they can.
Politics only occur when an area requires one to have power, autority and where heirachy levels exist. & why do people play politics, which is to satisfy a need or a want that they desire. Which is in many instances, they want power, the power to command, the power to lead, the power to order. Do you agree?
'Play politics', it is such a sensitive phrase that it is even regarded as taboo in companies and agencies. But why should we even let them control who and what we want to be?
Isn't it only correct that the individual with the best interpersonal skills, the best leadership qualities, the best foresightness, the ability and capability to be there, on top? Why should someone who have obviously lost to him or her, because him or her is not on top, want to fight for it?
Probably because He thinks that He deserves to be there, they try all means to bring that one person down, until he gets his postition.
But why bother going through all that trouble, those underhand ways to get up there and to get him down, in such unrighteous ways?
Why not climb your way up there by improving whatever areas you lack and get up there, the world will look at you in a different way, you will be respected, because you;ve earned that respect.
Why bother creating the trouble getting people to get angry and all, when you can focus more on becoming a better person. Why even attempting to break the bond, the love of the organisation just to satisfy your needs?
Most importantly, He lost to you because you fought your way up and you are better now.
One word, Selfish. Maybe because your surname is Yu, or your family sells fish, but dont be selfish. Dont get everyone upset because you didnt get waht you want, dont mess things up jsut cause you got what you didnt want, dont ever do that. int he first place, you joined this organisation because you love it here. Dont assume you'll make it a better place with you in there, because all you've created have just crushed our hopes of becoming happy, to love and let love, to forgive and forget.
Our Father, "Forgive us our sins as we forgive those who sin against us, do not bring us to the test, but deliver us from evil"i hope it makes sense, i knw to forgive and forget may be very difficult, but He first forgave us. Religious, im sorry.
But it is through love that keeps us going, the love for the well being of the organisation. Look at not what the organisation can offer you, but what you can give to the organisation and whether we need that or not.
This is not targeted at anything or anyone in Union, school, work or anything. Just something for you to really think about. Iamnot afraid if you question me, go ahead. but im serious, mummy told me abt her wrk place la, so i talk abt it and i see it in school, so i say la.
Next, Sub Comm recruitment is ard the corner?
However, im seeing quite a few whoa re willing to forsaken that position they once loved so much, dissapointment? committment? who know, seriously.
but it all comes down to what you can give, and how we need it.
you are the arms and legs and organs of union, we are the heart and brain. without you, we fall, without us, you fail, viceversa.
if you have so much drive, passion and love, dont let it die.
Use these at the right areas, complacent wont get you anywhere, egoistic wont give you respect,
capabilities comes with ability which comes with power and attitude, if you have it, you earn their respect.but i am still trying to achieve that.. :(
okay, back to normal!
meow, my favourite word today :D
i just realised i have 5 plus projects to submit in 2 weeks' time.
good job kim.
and i kinda fought with mama that day.
bloody aircon wasnt working again, so i got angry and said this to mum before leaving home, "if the aircon was cold and i could get a good nights' sleep, i wouldnt look grumpy every morning" somethg like tt, i know im rude, slap me.
then i sms-ed her this,
"everytime i think about how much you spend at the jackpot room it jsut upsets me. becuase lets say everytime you spend 150, if you make 20 trips, you've spent 3000, plus some winnnings, HOPEFULLY, you can ALREADY BUY ME A LAPTOP THAT I NEEED I T SO MUCH. thats how upset i am sometimes, but do you even notice?but what if the money you spent was yr own money, for yr leisure and entertainment? im sure this amount will come in handy if you happen to want to buy something you like in hk, or spend it at their NICER jackpot rooms.come waht maybt wait a min, i was promised to have a laptop when im in yr two.im not kicking up a fuss, but im just expressing my thoughts.hopefully you'll think though.Thanks."okay, call me unfillial, call me a bastard kid, i dont care.
i know i was really rude and all, talking to my mother like that.
neever have i once spoken to her like that, and i made her cry.
i meow her, she cry, i was damn scared la.
but what really shocked me was when she admitted its her fault,
she shouldnt have spent it on jackpot games she call her hobby,
i shouldnt have apologised for saying what was correct.
but i felt so horrible talking to my mum in that manner,
what balls grew on me that morning man.
brave soldier.
thne we cry cry then we hug in bed then we okay already!
then she ask me what laptop i want, how much one, 2k or 3k,
i start crying again.
oh my banana, meow. mama loves me, i love mama.
and my dinosaur was outside, he let us clear up first before entering and thne he go coax my emotional mother. :D
daddy love!
MEOW :D
no more emo, im not emo.
i jsut have new fire, i is happy.
went to celebrate nic's bday ystd.
traditional fish n co lousy song + humiliating session
i think its quite fun, i also want :D
nic, see, its a memorable day out, jsut like any other day.
whaddle whaddle whaddle.
please continue not puffing, every stick means on slap on yr face.
or one punch, i would love to try punching turtles.
my brothers are a lovable bunch to spend time with :D
meow, im sleepy. byebye.
10:08 AM
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Monday, June 18, 2007
Interviews will be held at the
Students' Lounge,
Student Development Centre Block 30, Level 4,
from
11A.M. to 5P.M.
*Interviewees can choose to come
for an individual interview,
or bring along some friends for a group interview.
*
Good luck to those who will be attending the interview,
and we hope to see you at
the TPSU SubComm Recruitment Camp
Be there to experience a year full of fun and excitment!
TPSU Oei!
my love.
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Sunday, June 17, 2007
you of still i think
this do mean to never
werent if you you only
i i werent and
i- met f only didnt we
to hurt is painful it
i hurt to am all at is good
you are out of my life.one day, i can shout it out loud.STOP THIS HURTING, STOP THE KILLINGwonder how it would be like to be the balloons let off on CCN day?
slowly, steadily, drifting out into the sky
those cheery red balloons, inflated with love
loosing sight, away from where we are
moving towards that clear blue sky, that neverworryland,
the nevercryland, neverstressland, neverangryland.
a lil randomness to end off the sadistic post.
; i would wait forever, if you could waiti would search forever, if you could looki would love forever, if you could love
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:D
yeah, welcome back, after how many donkey years?
nothing in mind now, just came back from Zilra's chalet.
had a long talk with Kahyuen about faith, and all.
shall not go into detail and i realise how much i miss CHIJ SJC.
the mass, presence of God, morning prayers, meal prayers, school dismissal prayers, Father, Hymms and all.
Basically, i miss the IJ love.
From the rebellious, arrogant, ignorant girl to who i have become today.
From trying to act cool by modernising the uniform, to appreciating what our ancestors have brought tp us.
From trying to make fun or run as soon as dismissal prayers were done, to patiently and saying the prayer wholeheartedly.
From thinking that what i had in life was li suo dang ran de shi, to appreciating what i have till its gone
IJ life really taught me how to love, care and trust others, like how the thousand odd girls trusted me.
Ij really taught me how to be a better person, something my parents would not ahve taught me
they taught me how to work as a team, how to go beyond my limits, how to think about a million things that wont concern me.
I know God was watching over me and i have faith in Him that what i worked hard for will come my way.
I dont know, its just, i feel lost right now.
I still look at the quotes and stuff outside St Anne's Church everytime 372 goees pass, it feels like a stranger to me now, because i used to look at the same quote every day until they change a new one for 4 years.
and i could memorise them at heart, and use them to advice my friends and all. No, its different now, i feel lost.
you know, after all this, it all sparked off when someone asked me what are you going yo do now, i didnt have a definite answer, and in the past, i know i would.
and anthoer incident, if you really wanna know how i feel, just read entry on November 1 2006. only that its another person and i wasnt as angry as i were, but if it continues for another lets say, 3 weeks? Man, i will chop - head off.
yes, i am not happy.
but you know, life is unfair, you dont always meet people you want to meet. but why d i have to handle one of such kind EVERY DIFFERENT SEMESTER IN SCHOOLL??? WAHLAO.
oakybye.
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Saturday, June 09, 2007
HELLO! :D
i am back from LTC2007
i am back from Ah Tan's celebration, i provide things and all la!
i am back from Fazly's bbq
i am back from my family's chalet :D
okay, monster stop staring at my screen
go and change.
she's indulging me into her boobies right now, wahlao.
ewww, a kiss and she runs away.
:D i love monster!
anyway, i am tired from the camp, only had 2 hrs of sleep was talking to shawn,liyi and ron :D
more talking with ron and liyi
instadn noodles, O2JAM :D
back to dance studio to bully alot more DSC people :D
thank you joseph for the cow, you ex cheerleading vice-cap!
ron ron ah, amagnamsdfnowia(i dunnno how to spell) ahhh!!! tsk tsk
we had ALP the entire day on sat, came back looking like a lobster again.
but, i like :D
met crayon, ky and ron to go to my family's chalet.
bully all the small lil cousins and stuff
you know my cousin from new zealand, hes damn cute la!
weiwei told him, "kor kor buy you BLUE TRUCK okay?"
then he said, "Okay okay! BLUE FFFUCK! BLUE FUCCKK!!!"
like omg la, damn funny please, i laugh like hell
and he's only like 4 :D
oaky, going out for lunch now, itsfamiltday-without one sister.
and im gg to the big grove later on!
PS. bestbud! cheer up :) you know i lvoe you, i can leave the ticket at the back of the booth again and you can watch it fly away :D
PPS. Maybelle, hang in there. dont let these people bring you down, i will be that angel constantly reminding you of yr existence in the club, yr motive of running. YOU CAN DO THIS!
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Thursday, June 07, 2007
Hello,
i am going to pack my bag that i am supposed to be done with 3 hrs ago
i am going for a 2D1N Leadership Training Camp in school tonight
i am going to come back ot find myself at Downtown East, sandwiched between my family bbq and fazly's bbq :D
i am going to go home exhausted after tt and meeting the dim sum girls for some Zara shopping at James' Church on sunday
i am going to The Groove Concert on Sunday night
i am going over to Kyle's house for the TPSU Excos BBQ after the concert
So, before i die, let me tell the world that i love you :D
and i need to work
and that TPSU SUB COMM CAMP IS HERE!!! 29-30th! please check out the tiny posters for more information
and that TPSU AGM IS HERE!!! 5th July, Auditorium 1, Be there!
i love you la, byebye
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Wednesday, June 06, 2007
oaky, after ben came to remind me of how emo my past entry was, i shall blog to show how happy i am, so,
HELLO WORLD :D
ah, it has been two consecutive days of studying at the airport till wee hours with crayon, ming, hong and kahyuen.
finally hong met ky and ky met hong, the lookalikes :D
damn funny, hong kept looking at me, to like signal to ask if tts the ky i was talking abt. bastard, disturb only.
but the studying sesssion turned to some gaming session or snooker forrumm, one word, BOYS.
but it was worth ti cause genius kim finished three chapters in three hrs and like 1n half for another in two seperate nights.
but the results vary, and i ahve a v bad feeling abt my accounts paper...
lets not talka bt accounts then!
i went on a field trip today with my Geog TM group
the dim sum family without qiaofei, mason and wilson
had fun with xx, yingxiu (and her annoying sister), james, emerald and kenneth.
we went to joo chiat, walk damn far, took alot of random photos,
bought soem nice dumplings, yeah, food!
then went to lao pa sat, suagar cane drink w lemon costs $1.80, wtbbq!
and walked all the wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy to merlion park.
stupid james and his china poses copied form the tourists, laughs.
then we gave up our field trip to clarke quay cause its damn far and we're all tired.
so james went back home, ken took pay, and the girls al lwent shopping :D
window shopping i mean.
the puma ah, damn disgusting, the new bra shirt thing ?
the packaging is like the female chest.
and the undies are like yr crotch and some pubic hair, wtbbq.
damn gross.
and yar, i was super on budget today, spent only 6 bucks :D
mummy, i need moneyyyy
and yes, i survived Zara without touching anything!
cause i challenged xx to shop in Zara without touchigna nything, cant even see price tag, funny know, touch once fine $1!
ah, went home, din meet zilra and gang,
i knocked out on the couch the moment i hit it.
slept like a pig, couldnt wake up, no vision and all again
ah, alot of SU work to do tmr. i shall rest my worn out body.
the demon have attacked oncve more.
eww, reminds me of the conversation we had today, abt ghost stories and demons and all. scary but true.
and im going ot James' church for thee wonderful Zara sale with the girls this sunday :D
can you imagine, Mens' Zara, 17 tops and one pants for only $50?
im putting on my running shoes already :D
oh yes, junkies tee for me please.
bday is coming :D
i want my VAIO as well
omg omg omg GSS is getting into me,
with no cash!
iggys here i come.
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