Sunday, April 29, 2007
What Hurts The MostI can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do
It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do
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okay! im quite hyper right now, but im not doing my tutorials.
best bud wants me to start yr two with the right foot, whats wrong with the left?
went to Sylvia and Xiuzhen's concert at YMS today with Edric, Serena, Julianna and Joelle and Dick.
i swear the zombie thing that looks like a cheerleading routine is damn hilarious.
im sorry Deyi Alumni -.-
went to national library to meet LAM FOOK PIN after concert,
wah, FOOK PIN IN THE LIBRARY LEH!
damn rare i think, btu he was doing his resume for SIP
a bit late ah bro? but nevertheless, he's the best candidate to cheer me up lar :D
came along qingying and we went mos for dinner
wahlao, my unagi burger shrank can!
it was like PATHETIC lar.
three small pieces of unagi, i'll rather go carrefour to spend 8 bucks on the long long unagi man!
oh, dont order yr food form johnny chan at Bugis Junction's Mos Burger aoky?
he'll walk away and come back to ask you if you have made up yr mind
wah, bastard.
could see ah lam with his, 'i want to complain' look :D
afterwhich, we walked around, talked and talked, suans each other.
and edric adn i went to buy the REN (chinese character which means to bear with it) notepad for our service class.
and i could visualise ourselves like getting scolded by mr goh then, draws out the note pad, stares at it and nods to yrself, MUST REN! :D
should buy one for tat yi leh. laughs.
had one of those long long bus rides back home with Edric,
realsie that its been ages since we've done that, realsied how close we were in year one.
i really regretted running away, but it was inevitabel cause edric told me he ran away as well. ah, great minds think alike!
yeah, he kinda updated me alot abt his life and yeah, i miss the old times!
alright, may is like coming in two days' time.
i need to deisgn my posters if i want to run!
and yes, i have yet to start, and i neeeeed to start NOW
anyone wants to lend a helping hand?
wahahahh : D
im serious this time, i will make yr voices heard :D
so come on
TP,
VOTE FOR ME!
(psst, dont steal my campaign method hor)
alright, after letting it out, i think i feel more relived now.
i dont feel like i have a string tied to my neck all the time.
im free.
but it must have been tough, but i know peep will pull through.
even though i felt that peep should ahve respected my decision,
but yeah, i wont if i werent in peep's shoes
morale of the story: kim, dont repeat this mistake again :(
oaky, do tutrial, pack bag for overnight stay at CRAYON'S house :D
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Thursday, April 26, 2007
HELLO WORLD : D
initially, i thought today's post will be nothing but emo-ness.
but hell no, because of american idol's idol gives back and video that jeryl shared with me, im a happy girl now :D
watch it oaky!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uk2tVpO_ca0that bird typed each letter out cause he dunno how to copy n paste, wah, DAMN CUTE LEH.
you shia lar.
oh well, i had service class today.
was suppsoed to start at 8, but i was late because there were like 2 or 3 accidents at TPE.
it was only five minutes, damn it lar.
and goh yelled in my face.
open wine bottles, pour water into wine glass, introduction to silverware, glassware, bar equipments
ahhhh, was really intresting though im bored.
and they're using iggy's utensils and ritz carlton's bowls. LAUGHS
but the 5.5 million Temasek Culinary Academy is pretty impressive i must say, with service crew like yrs truly, i bet its perfect.
ah, to early to say, i cant even pour plain water into wine glass without dripping. SHIT
well, end of the day, being so strict with us at TCA
i guess there's a reason, becasue our batch of htm students are all so soft and nua.
and we cant even fulfill the basic requirements like punctuality, all the more they have the right to yel lat us.
but i really like the discipline we're undergoing,
but one thing im worried about, is that mr goh will loose his voice permanently by the end of week 13, take care sir! : D
anyway, tue was fun :D
had lectures, met mr goh, that fierce fellow with no neck.
went for dinnr with Zilra, zhaopei lost her wallet, dont be too upset girl! my fren say she'll call us if they find it!
talked/ crapped/ yelled/ scremed at one another at Mac's that day
and the circle forced me to say out my eye candies lor, i dunno why i did
but yeah, someone eye candies me.
one of my favourite freshies leh :D
seriosuly, after watching American Idol's Idol Gives Back, it really left me in a pool of tears please.
right here, fabulous living conditions, with lights, air con and computer
and then over there with practically nothing, the best they can do is a bed with mats and non potable water.
everytime a camera is shoved into their face, you can see the megawatt smile from every kid, despite such harsh conditions, they are living life to the fullest and to the best,
but the worst thing is, some of them might or will be HIV positive.
and here i am, or probably, us, are whining all the time about this about that, getting upset over things, paying extra attention to the latest trend, not having to worry about water begin clean or whether anyone will die tomorrow.
seriosuly, we're too fortunate, we need to help others.
i cried when josh groban touched the kid on his left when he sang this few lines, "You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains; You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be. "
and i cried even harder when the kids all huged him after the performance, heartwarming leh.
and the bunch of 20 walk ard in neat rows can, they hug alrdy, then go back also neat neat one leh. ZAI CAN. hahaha
but this short scene left me pondering, where is the
love?
Aids can be controlled.
well, after working for 8 hours ystd, and standing up for 8 hrs in class.
its time i retire to my lalaland, see you people tmr!
oh, Iggy's Restaurant has gone up from a World Ranking of 98 to 60!and Chef Dorin is the Chef of the Year! heh, my workpalce leh, but im useless there lar. laughs, eat capellini, shallot, olive rice only!ah, more freshies to talk to at cca booth and week 1 HTM orientation at night, i think i need a break real soon!
KIMLOVESALL!
eh brothers, my love got value one can.
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Monday, April 23, 2007
LULALU :D
hello world, im back.
today was the first day of school and i had fun!
because i have some really nice classmates and i have japanese class and i saw mr toot and i went to play basketball with Zilra and i exercised and yeah, i had jap class.
yukkuri onega.. whatever lar. thats my favourite phrase to shoot my jap tcher casue it means, 'please speak slowly'
WAHAHAHAHHA
hyper, indeed i am
because i jsut irritated the hell out of nic on the phone just now
wahahhaha, im gonna wrk on wed and i hope i wont be late for Service Skills on Thurs else im DEAD :l
oaky, that was a messy post. let em start all over again : Dhello everyone, im a happy girl today and im feeling really hyper.
ooohhhh, im so hyped up after irritating nic on the phone for the past half an hour!
im so happy because i saw mr toot, i have friendly classmates, i had jap class, i went to the lounge, i played bball and yeah, i love TP : D
well, im just upset i didnt have breakfast, Zilra delayed my dinner even though i was the one la, i didnt get to see mel & jun, crocodile talked to mr toot non-stop today and yeah, i suddenly feel like a bitch ):
dont ask me why, because i cant express it out in words.
but all i know is im like a bird, i can chip fly and poo everywhere
but once you place me in a cage, there's goes my freedom, there goes my nosie there goes my mood.
so yeah, i guess i dont like to be caged lar
but the wierd thing to many is, i find that 'caging' -.-
oh wells, i can survive this whatever i think it is : D
wah, today's entry damn random, but i like : D
wahahahhahahhhahahahahha
okay lar, go do some stuff alrdy.
BYE!
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Thursday, April 19, 2007
hello world : D
realised that stupid blogger kinda deleted part and parcels of my previous entry, haiyah, add on someday lar
i feel bimbotic now cause im complaining to everyone that my internet explorer is down and im using morillza, so lag leh.
anyway, i had a fun weeek : D
monday had post mortem for FO 0708, was quite a fun thing to attend lar.
and im really glad FO has come to an end
it has been a really wonderful, meaningful, exhausting and interesting six days with the crazy bunch at FO main comm!
so, wassted time in lounge again
went for dinner with mr glenn the black man and he was runing a high fever but insisted on gg to wrk cause sip of 6 weeks only allows him to take 4 days MC. WTF
okay, take care glenn! :D
lulalala
went to sentosa with the MC on tue : D
damn fun lar, even though i was whiny that i went to sch for nth cause i couldnt collect my uniform, i was late. -.-
we had fun even though ti was a small outing, all nine of us
alv, ter, faz, tat, gohfong, yiling, elene, yuting and myself :D
eh, i got tanner leh, and i had lots of fun : D
and best bud couldnt come casue he was at wrk. WAHAHAAHHAA
and hello, it didint RAIN lor.
wed, went to wrk, overstaffed, all got sent home.
thurs, Business Week Zero Orientation
oh yeah, its damn fun.
i bet it was cause HTM IS THE NEW DIPLOMA OF THE YEAR: D
oh yeah oh yeah, HTM ROCKS!
anway, orientaiton was not bad this year.
the freshies were all hyped up, i think its FO lar. : D
ZILRA OEI!
okay, as usual, everyentry kim will emo a bit.
i think i can be emo queen alrdy lar.
brother, stop falling sick oaky, it was stomach then now u faint, what's next? TAKE CARE LARRR!
kimmy dont feel like talking abt it leh, prob tmr after J&H where i will meet best bud, sigh.
no love no feeling lar, i think im gonna join the sisterhood soon!
wah, emo leh. so many, i dunno how.
and lastly, what really pissed me off today.
i mean, its good your enthu and all, you've got a loud voice adn yeah, you come from somewherer better than where we were today, we TOTALLY respect that.
coming from where we are, arent we suppode to act as the link for all 5 schools?
and not to diss at people and act liek we're a million times better than them, no, i dont think that should be the way lar, al the more we shld lend our support and help them to improve ma.
where is the love? where is the respect?
thats one thing i hate abt the people from the place that i love.
we all know its not as good as our project, but where's the 'sportmanship'?
at least be cooperative right? no wonder BSC, INTSC, ASSC etc ppl so anti-us ):
yeah, thanks for reading.
oh yeah, something happier, i have like 9 eye candies in school right now?
see?
this is what life in TP is for! wahahah : D
and Zilra has four :D
I LOVE ZILRA!
oaky, sentosa on sat!
J&H and regatta tmr! HOORAY!
byeeee :D
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Monday, April 16, 2007
OKAY, welcomes the owner back :D
*rolls red carpet, clap hands, firecrackers bursting, later bursting out in flames...
yes, im finally back after 7 long days at school at the FOW/ FOC 0708 :D
hooorays, i believe the FO Main Comm did a great job this year, because we have exceeeded our number of intakes and the freshies were all fantastic as well!
All thanks to the wonderful people at Zilra, GLs, thank you for making my job so much easier these six days :D
it wasnt an easy job being the mother hen of the team, at the same time dying to peck on you, but at the same time, trying to provide tender loving care : D but you still proved to me you all are wonderful GLs and yeah, u deserve TLC : D
Rock On Ma-Gu-Gu, Rock-ing On Zil-Ra-Ra!!
hey lil freshies, im gald all of you turned uo for FOW or FOC, from today onwards, all of you will become
one big family now! so, lets all come together and show the school that even thoguht Zilra got last again like FOW and OTC, we are still the best spirited group okay?
winning isnt everythg, because its the little efforts that everyone puts in that makes the biggest difference (:
what doesnt kill you makes you stronger right? :D
but yes, thank you all for the gifts and hugs and everything,
you all made me feel that the preparation and time sacrificed the past three months was all
worth it.oh, i have a few freshies who rmb me from Tampines North Primary School leh! super old school man, well known since back then. HEH. dancing queen also hor. mai ge siao. okay, see?
im so vulgar cause of welson alrdy. HAHA!
come on, outings outings and MORE OUTINGS :D
ZILRA, YOU SHIA!
YOU SHIA? NO-NO, YOU ROCK!
ah, randomness again lar :D
after six days of non-stop action, lack of sleep, ultimate stress, heat rashes, clash of intrests, high irritablity, sore throat, voiceelessness and a dozen things, this is the reason why i love FO :D
--)RaiThO(-- ROAR.. TEMASEK POLY.. AND HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE!!! ZILRA-----ZILMON oi oi OI..... says:
EVERYBODY CHANT
ChinKwang. Zilmon Rawks!!! says:
LOL
--)RaiThO(-- ROAR.. TEMASEK POLY.. AND HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE!!! ZILRA-----ZILMON oi oi OI..... says:
WE LOVE KIM
Uniquely Johan- I'm a Preetttyyy boy! =3 says:
!!!
--)RaiThO(-- ROAR.. TEMASEK POLY.. AND HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE!!! ZILRA-----ZILMON oi oi OI..... says:
WE LOVE KIM
Uniquely Johan- I'm a Preetttyyy boy! =3 says:
we throw ck into water on sat
Uniquely Johan- I'm a Preetttyyy boy! =3 says:
>< ChinKwang. Zilmon Rawks!!! says:
TAT WAS JUZ A JOKE
ChinKwang. Zilmon Rawks!!! says:
LOL
--)RaiThO(-- ROAR.. TEMASEK POLY.. AND HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE!!! ZILRA-----ZILMON oi oi OI..... says:
quick chant
--)RaiThO(-- ROAR.. TEMASEK POLY.. AND HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE!!! ZILRA-----ZILMON oi oi OI..... says:
WE LOVE KIM
Mooshi (oo) When you go, would you even turn to say "i don't love u, like i did ytd" says:
WE LOVE KIM
Mooshi (oo) When you go, would you even turn to say "i don't love u, like i did ytd" says:
WE LOVE KIM
ChinKwang. Zilmon Rawks!!! says:
WE LOVE KIM
Mooshi (oo) When you go, would you even turn to say "i don't love u, like i did ytd" says:
WE LOVE KIM
--)RaiThO(-- ROAR.. TEMASEK POLY.. AND HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE!!! ZILRA-----ZILMON oi oi OI..... says:
WE LOVE KIM
Mooshi (oo) When you go, would you even turn to say "i don't love u, like i did ytd" says:
WE LOVE KIM
WE LOVE KIM
WE LOVE KIM
WE LOVE KIM
Uniquely Johan- I'm a Preetttyyy boy! =3 says:
WE LOVE KIM
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hey kim, are you okay?
yeah yeah,dont worry, im fine.sounds familiar? because its a standard question and a standard answer ):
this is what happens when you put two girsl with the same cahracteristics together
this is what happens when you have a buddy who gives nothing but empty promises
this is what happens when the friend you treasure alot doesn't respect you
this si waht happens when the friend doesnt regard yr feedback aand wannd fight back all the time
this is what happens when pretty boy meets with no love
this is what happens when yr beloved year threes who have stood by you sicne day 1 tells you they're leaving, that you can do it and they're not gonna be here anymore
this is what happens when you're shagged out mentally, physically and emotionally by the word, FO.
this is what happens when
i really tried hard to rmb at least ten names and faces at each FO.
but i realised that i cant ):
and i think back again, to who i really am. i would have mastered their names at the back of my hands if i were a GL.
thought hard again at Day 3, do i really wanna do this?
and then again, is all this worthwhile?
those who know me since Day one, you know how crazy i am and how much i wanna become a GL. all i wanted to do was to have fun, know more freshies and spread the love.
but becoming HGL was something bigger, it was like a bonus you know?
this yr wasnt gonna be easy, here comes the challenge and i decided to take it up but little did i knwo the stress, responsiblity and seriousness that follows.really pulled down my morale when i thought hard, if i were a great HGL.because i didnt wanna regret on last day ):they say PT sucked, they say performance night sucked.i knwo what's running through people's mind with one glance, they wanna stand in my position, they look down on us.a part wants to fight, a part wants to flight ):im jsut sad i dont get to spend time with my freshies, as mucha s i wanna do. if i could choose again, i would rather be a GL, but then, i am capable of a HGL position, dilema.guess, great responsibilities comes with great power.i must learn how to shift from fun to work if i wanna run for Main Comm.but then again, do i want to run for Main Comm? sigh.
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Friday, April 06, 2007
hello :D
okay, im back from SL camp, 2-4th April.
wah, i didn't think that i would survive this camp lar, but i did.
i think boring camps are really good, they make you test yr patience and challenges you.
like YAC, the programm was really damn sucky but our perserverence pulled us through and yeah, im a survivor, im gonna... whatever lar destiny's child ):
but yeah, serious, SL camp is a million times better than YAC
and im not saying this because Mark is the ACC okay? :D
i really like the ALP part, even though i din do it lar, the games and the cereal fish.
i think the cater signed a 10 yr contract with the flour company because all their food weree like eh, FRIED?
i think the fight in the canteen was damn random, i thought BSC was a ahbeng squad leh
i think the ALP is really fun, but i din do lar.
was enjoying aircon and sleeping in the lounge cause of banana t-shirt designs, liyi was doing all the work lar.
oh, liyi and i gave thanks to Shawn-the-man, Mr Chan the supplier, Lounge for their aircon, Clifton for everythg and his 5 bucks where i had omelette and sausages :D, Nicholas fr his Photochop skills and Liyi for doing all the work :P
oh yar, the ALP thing where we have to jump and reach for the bar inf ront is
damn scary.
sheena really shorten my life by ten yrs by throwing the harness at my direction, go and die you stupid ex-classmat ELF!
you knw why?
1) im afraid of heights
2) i dont dare to jump for things, like monkey bar, i dont even dare to reach for the chin-up bar can, even on ground level.
yes, im sorry. im that random and stupid. i cant reach for it
when i saw joan and lw hanging there, i wanted to dig the ground to hide my head. ):
yes, i cried at fianl clash.
i think i should explain because the whole world is asking me why i was so upset ):
yeah, so my group is called Draco.
so yes, we have really pathetic manpower, like only 12 people for FINAL CLASH. wahlao. can commit suicide in time before the people come is already good enough.
continue, yes. and so i decided to use my relations to form aliance with the other empires. soon, Draco was unbeatable, because we had like 5 aliances, like WOW :D
so, the game went on and it was left with Draco, Taurus and Lepus.
Taurus was like half dead alrdy adn they were like our friends, our aliance.
so UN, yrs truly went over to Taurus to talk cock sing song to convince them not to kill us and lets go kill Lepus instead.
So yeah! wah, nice plan.
And wahhhh, some teammate from my group went to chiong to Taurus' Lollipop and POP! their lollipop went out ):
wah, liek seriously leh. i really told thme to kill Lepus first right?
then after tt we fight ourselves.
but miscommunication lar. ):
then, some banan from my grp said some
f@#$@$%ed up shit and made me cry, such ungrateful fellow he is.
we wont make it to the finals if it werent for our aliances okay?
BANANA! you damn thing. haha
because he wanted to kill Lepus after we killed our own FRIEND LOR!
nvm nvm, :D
but im glad mr gentlemen stood up and said we shld like commiit suicide
wah. that leads to another story lar, can see cheehong's face.
all he wanted was to win, like what edwin said, winning is not everythg : D
like, i really hope they did follow my plan leh.
i knw i sound like a little kid but yeah.
cause if we kill Lepus right, one bomb can kill Taurus already.
okay, im not petty lar.
lets forget it oaky? :D
but yeah, so much for joining the United Nations ):
so SL camp came to an end with really lousy comments from cheehong, who doesnt appreciate my efforts but told me he did. WAHAHA, contradicting.
but im glad that Draco were really supportive and accepting.
see, i have this problem, i worry if the people will like accet my craziness leh. ):
yeah, Draco is the sweetest empire in SL camp, i swear! :D
tell you more abt joan's bday celelbration tmr :D
i lvoe Zilra SHEs and oaky lar, my FAs rock even though they are like busyy. HEH!
bye, meeting at 9 tmr ):
BYE
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