Wednesday, January 31, 2007
WARNING, THIS WILL BE A SUPER RANDOM ENTRY WITH TONS OF GRAMAMTICAL ERRORS, APOLOGISES
hello.
my mind always go blank when i wanna blog
anyway, im so glad i had ten hours of sleep today, that is at the expenses of three lectures! hahaha
was looking fresshhh after gazillion years,
had the time to dilly dally here and there, slowly walk to bus stop,
go put on make up, talk here talk there
HAHA!
i think i am very dumb, you tell me something indirectly, i wont be able to figure it out
but if you were to tell my friend, i'll be able to identify the points out for them
why huh? i think im super abnormal.
and the worst part is, most of them thinks that im smart enough to figure it out
but half the time, i dont ):
and its got me into deep shit at times
but sometimes, i still spot those unwanted messages.
those messages i dont wanna know, but they still wanna let me know.
dont speak; don't tell me what you're thinkingman am i glad that econs is finally over,
alot of miscommunication, dont wanan talk about it here
but i am terribly upset by the way i was treated
because i really didnt do that on purpose?
not sending or not replying, i dont know what to say
just, when im at work, im really focused,
anyway, i apologise again.
oh, and thee wasnt alot of bombings for my grp, phew!
dont look; don't give me that lookthought of all the things i wanna do for post-exam period!
- decorate my room
- paint my walls, either the walls of mensa salad bar or jsut marroon red
- make the
#$@%^ thing to hang belts and earrings and stuff
- buy my mirror
- buy my roller chair
- buy my laptop!
- do lots of shopping and work my ass off!
don't sleep; don't waste such precious timeim glad its coming to an end, i tried, i really did
i gave it my shot, not my best, i know
but still, i gave it a shot.
but i couldnt give everything that i thought i could
but i took away everything that was given
till then, till i can learn how to give everything i have
till i can learn not to be selfish with my love,
till i learn how to think from both sides,
till i can grow out of this immature self,
till i find the person who has the key,
till then, i'll wait..
but i dont know if its worth the wait
don't deny; don't wait for me cause this is meomg, YTSA is dead.
so, as the Vice Chairman of the YTSA committee, (ai-seh)
i am going to pull it back up again (: and i will!
alot of things have to be done, it'll be great if ahem can come up too
but looks like i have to do it alone ):
but i still have the help of my always-there YTSAs (:
hey people, lets organise this freaking big event and shock the whole TS deepartment okay?
and treat it as a tribute to our founder, the 'late' anthony! HAHAHA!
ROCK ON PPL (:
seriously, if anothny hadnt form this,
i dont think i'll become a useful, wellknown(not a gd way pls), enthusiatic, sporty person
don't lie; cause i have enough procrastinators aroundits gonna be another tough week to pull through,
working so close to the deadline really spoils all the mood
fnb, still a freaking long way to go
commskills, i hope my brain can work fast fast on fri morning,
arts, individual work=slack shit, no on to push me, but i feel the motivation to do better than someone lorrrrrrrrrr -.-
LDSH, hopefully i will know stuff and pohsuan will stop hating me
LDSH test, they say its easy, but i know nothing le ):
don't procrastinate; because you know you can do more than thati think i am a very kind soul today, three claps for three good deeds done
but three is never enough for the sins that i have committed ):
see, random right? thought of passion of the christ!
don't count; don't count themi should learn to take control of myself,
my temper, my mood, my actions, my words
i dont know why im so blessed to meet such forgiving friends
though i have never broke down in front of them
my emotions cant run away from their eyes
i really love them, and i thank God i met them
they have seen the downs and ups
they ahve beared with the attitude problem and mood swings i have,
honestly, i dont knwo why but i wasnt like this last yr
becasue i'll feel so bad venting on Daryl cause she will never do that to me
and this yr, i did ): im sorry, TPOH, mtgs, projs, class, random moments
i really wish i could go back to sjc, where i was still me
don't change; don't change with the environment, just be youim still wondering, sometimes people put me down
and i feel like im such a nobody
dejected, discouraged, lost my confidence
i really don't want to be sad anymore,
i should learn to let go
don't hang on, don't cause you must move on
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Tuesday, January 30, 2007
i love this day, i smiled all day
despite being diao-ed and suffering from poor eyesight
tired eyes and an exhausted body
i love this day cause i smiled all day!
updates asap, i swear!
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Sunday, January 28, 2007
TPSU Basketball Session 30th! Be there man!
lulalala, after oggling at the fantastic crabs that uncle tsai bought,
i went back home to find more delicious food from granny's hse.
i swear im gonna put on alot alot alot of weight by the time exams are over ):
sis came home with a fabulously gorgeours corset-type-dresss form F21 (: effing 73 bucks, but its worth every cent of it!
im gonna get my own dress soon (:
shopping with the grils on 9th!
shopping with neo and maybelle ASAP! neo, see, ur named here!
anyway, school was like
horrible as usual.
so many things to do, so lil time
finally finished up social comm stuff after a delay of one week,
im glad TP Rawks Purple PLs are on the raise again,
freshies, outing alert!commskills test yet to be studied for, its tmrr!
econs individual article sooooooooooo not touched yet
commskills notice and agenda mailed to ken! YESSSSSSS (:
i wonder why some ppl can find all the information but not do it know, damn ass la. then find all the information,
zho lan ah? once nvm, but alll the time can.
we're equally busy lor. i'll help ken do then :D
been in a horrible mood swing since school started.
its become so frequent that its like a habbit.
i seriously need to kick that habbit ):
ahhhhhh, i get frustrated when i cant get wrk done
or when wrk is not done.
plus, im such a fantastic procrastinator
all the more i wont get things done, or perhaps, too many things to complete ):
yeah, i thank the girls for giving me a helping hand!
the times i hang out with u, really made me smile and relax.
oh, and i realise that only when i hang out with the girls and the union ppl, i get REALLY REALLY REALLY HAPPY? yeah, u ppl rock!
TUEwent SP (coughs) to watch the bball match!
i saw kimmy i saw marcus! terence was away and jsutin went on a study date! with who, i dunno la! gulp.
lalalalallala, TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC BEAT NUS 77-82
not the best scores, but hello? we won can (:
and the injured guy looks like wang lee hom!
21 is super duper tall can, and wah, everyball goes in man
-.-
mohammad didnt play, the centisian everyone forgot ):
cheer liek crazy la, but we had fun (: UNION POWER BABY!
love bestfriends (: i was like sitting in for my beloved joan sis, hahaha! KISS! ahhahahhahhaha.
WEDi felt like shit and gave sch a miss
THURSi dont like food frm wenjun's hse, they are sooo spicy, they make me shit.
Bedok 85-ed with the girls on thurs, ended up staying over at her hse!
all the lala, prawns, bachomee, chick wings, oyster omelette.
FATS FATS FATS, sigh.
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HELLO (:
im at wenjun's hse right now, econs proj, we finished it with minimum effort putted in la.
(prob cause boon gave us allll the infor alrdy?)
what a scary thought man, im super scared its not enough to get a B, or even a C!!
damn scared okay.
oh well, jun's auntie is such a great cook (: and the house is always filled with food.
chilli and pepper crab awaits me in the dining hall right now. HOOTS!
(hello ruiying, peep peep peep, READ LATER LAR! :D)
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Tuesday, January 23, 2007
it was never about the nice little ego buzz, but it was because of the sure-fire defusion of sleaziness.
I haven't slept at all in days
It's been so long since we've talked
And I have been here many times
I just don't know what I'm doing wrong
There's only so much I can take
And I just got to let it go
And who knows I might feel better,
If I don't try and I don't hope
What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there
No more waiting, no more, aching
No more fighting, no more, trying
Maybe there's nothing more to say
And in a funny way I'm calm
Because the power is not mine
I'm just going to let it flyas much as i wanna talk to you, i dont wanna know the truth
as much as i wanna know the truth, you dont wanna let me know
as much as you dont wanna let me know, you've got me hanging on
i dont really wanna go, where you dont follow
i cant hold it back again, this passion inside
cant run from myslef, there's nowhere to hide
dont make me close one more door, i dont wanna hurt anymore
stay in my life, if u can
must i imagine you there, dont walk away from me
mayb there's nothing left to say, thats why we'll never talk again
if thats not the ideal ending you've wished for, all you gotta do is call
because the power is not mine.
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Sunday, January 21, 2007
as tired as you are, i am too
i've been trying my best to please the whole world.
but i dont gain a thing at all, instead, i lost what i treasured most.
so dont show me that fughed up face all the time
cause i should be the one showing you that
one is enough la, i dont need two.
i wasnt selfish enough, i gave in too much
but have u ever gave a thought for me?
u think it was easy? did you put yourself in my shoes in the first place?
so i dont think us hould be selfish now and make me suffer
all those things u say, all those lies u make.
even people tell me its super cb. think abt it.
im really tired, i dont know if im reading too much into this.
but it never seems to rest.
baby girls, slow it down.
nobody siad it was easy, it's gonna be tough
decisions were enver meant to be right or wrong.
just, hearing those stuff made me feel even more sorry
so dont dont follow kim
fuggedd up with those shit some ass will say
backstab, backstab la! it jsut shows how immature u are what
come on la, you can go join all the guides u want, but point is, u din come for duty what. as irresponsible as we may be for ahem duty, so do you lor. plus, you had no rights or balls to question that cause we had the rights to ask what. plus, arent u a man? a GROWN UP MAN? hahahahah.
okay, im ugly, oh no, im super super ugly now.
but i had to let it out la ):
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another week gone, jsut like that
im glad mrkting and pom is OVER (:
left with the presentation that everyone fears
but like what they say, what doesnt kill you makes you stronger
true, aint it?
TPOH '07well, the first time social comm was given such a hugee responsibilty. we thought all we needed to do was organise events, we were wrong man. haha, but still, we're honoured to be given this chance (:
after these three days, i guess all i can say is i've learnt alot. that working with people is not easy. i've learnt alot about others and myself. tounges may wage, but im gonna tell myself i did that because i wanted things to be done the right way. the approach was wrong, okay, point noted, i'll work towards to improve it. right now, im just waiting for that evaluation from monster and get ready to eat my humble pie :
i dont know, i guess, im just super stressed. stern look, plus that tone, guess i was really scary. and it might come out as aggressive, bossy and demanding. but, i respect every single one of them as much as i wanna be respected, if i was bossy, im sorry once agn.
but somehow, i just feel they were not that cooperative, seriously. the atitude we get, the black faces ard, the tension was so tense. it was difficult for us. and i thought they'll make things easier, but i was quite disappointed. thats why i questioned their ability to carry out instructions effectively. the booth was like messy, responsibilities were huge. if only they were understanding enough..
they say like its so easy to make ends meet for evryone, tried hard to please everyone, but no one seems to please me back. but somehow, im convinced i'll sacrifice the next time round (: GO KIM GO!
Nevertheless, im still glad i was given this chance. Plus, i did it with my girls. jacq and ger, thank you two so much for everything these three days. I know i dont have as much AAOB as u two but yeah, i'll try my best to help okay? I know sometimes, or most of the time, im super straightforward, cause i dont like to beat ard the bush. im sorry if it hurted you girls, but i hope those were helpful. heck those ppl who were so against us, we believe in karma la. and thank you girls for having the same opinions, tell me i was okay when i said those words, tell me its okay to cry. it wasnt easy, but we pulled it through! I LOVE YOU GIRLS! :D
bestfriends, thank you four for the encouraging moments alright? i knwo bestfriends love us! (: thank you 4Js and 1b (: i'll love to paly bridge again (: hahahahhahhahahhahah,
oh, hello joan, long lost sister. WAHAHAHAHA. kiss you darling (:
jesslyynnnn, ur msg was the sweetest thing ever la (:
johny john, thanks for being such a wonderful runner! :D
mr. zhou, thank you for cheering me up :D
datou, man. i dont knwo what to say. im sorry i said i wanan give this all up. but, im gonna try my best the next time round, cause u know i've got the fire burning. it jsut have to be fed with twigs and wood, not kerosne (: i'll start collecting wood then!
J&H
wasnt the best but still, i loved it though
no fights, so glenny was happy! hahah.
oh man, cant dance. whats j&h without dancing?
last song was all i needed, with skye and mark
yo brothers, shake it alright (:
SL camp, here we come!
control my emotions, tame myself down
i cant accomplish if i dont loosen up
i know im not ready for it, but i'll work towards it
be it work, school, union or romance
im still not ready
but until then, i'll dream of being where i wanna be (:
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Monday, January 15, 2007
its a monday evening and i am stuck in the lab, doing work. because my comp cant access to internet, the cd drive cant read or burn cds, the thumbdrive is announed dead by the cybr centre guy and the desktop cant stop DC-ing. so yeah, i cant do shit, im screeweeedddd ): i can throw the bloody comp away soon.
as if monday blues aren't bad enough, i was pessimistic the whole day (or week or month), battling with myself, telling myself 'nah, they dont mean it this way' or i'll go, 'i can just kill this ass!'. i dont know why im like that today, or mayb everyday? but yeah, i guess i should just shut up and go on with the next hour of life.
shit, i think i cant survive another day without thinking about it, its like haunting me. the moment im alone, taking a break, blogging, talking, eating, walking to class, ah fughhedd.
and i dont know why i've been rejecting all the help that my darlings offer, like gayclan, they are constantly telling me that they'll be there and i know it. but i jsut dont want to. wierd, stubborn, whatever you say. but i think they're used to it, i'll go when i wanna go (:
marketing is done, presentation left to do, which is like done too? left with POM, the untouched leadership, fnb and econs. oh my god. im busy as a bee. i can jsut vomit blood on the day fo the presnetation if i dont take a break now. plus union stuff, not that im complaining, i really love my union stuff, but it seems like neverending togather with school.
seriously, im realllyyyy stressed, i cant rmb the numerous times i have to tell myself to relax, even when im sitting in the bus, i have this feeling that i need to clsoe up. and the times i woke up finding myself clinching my fists soo hard, the strain in my neck and those cramps i get when i contract my leg muscles soo hard? man, those happened in my sleep alright? i dont know whats wrong, im super stressed ): give me a break, Mr World.
okay, im even stressed up when im blogging, this isnt gonna work.oh man, i know i shouldnt be feeling this way, but i hate those phone calls they get, but i dont. i hate those smses they get, but i dont. i hate those times that im alone, but they dont. i hate that they'll hear thwir voice, but i dont. i hate that they get to go out, but i dont. i hate that they'll do more than celebrate mel's bday, but i dont. im not jealous or anything, look, im jsut a girl. i hate the feeling when i walked dwn orchard road, i hate it when its one o'clock, i hate it when i check my inbox, i hate it when i check my mail, i hate myself for being what i am now, i hate myself for getting into this.
oh yeah, valentine's day. vday'05 was memorrable, lotsa presents from the girls at school. plus that globe
she gave, the first time i felt so happy on vday. but, i
didnt let her know, she will enver know. oh well, we were
never meant to be together. IJ memories, stay with me for a lifetime (:this year, i think i'll just stay home and make love to my couch and popcorn la. or probably celebrate it with mel since its her bday -.- whoops, i just told the whole world mel. (:
im destined to be a lonely sparrow;
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Thursday, January 11, 2007
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Wednesday, January 10, 2007
The Green Mile, also written by Stephen King
okay, i know im a bad bad girl
by right, i was supposed to be in school for lessons at 9
but by left, i didnt make it to school after all
hahaha! im sorry i used someone's phrases -.-
went to rivervale mall to rent 'the green mile' for my leadershio assignment
and never have i imagined myself to cry so hard at a movie la
its freeaaakkkkkingg nice alright, and i mean it
its so touching, so heartwarmthing that i cry so hard mummy was shocked
and the piles of tissue i used, oh my oh my.
and i dont cry that easily okay, i mean, when im okay la
this movie totally rocks.
story of this prison guard (Tom Hanks),
one day, he met this new prisoner called John Coffrey,
he was a giantic back man, who was said to be convicted with murder, malign-ed ):
but, Hanks was amazed at how gentle this big giant is,
and he never believed that this man would kill two lil girls
he wanted to save John, let him go, but John ... watch n see yourself (:
John has special powers, he could 'help' people, he could actually heal people
he healed Hanks' urinary problem, revieved a mousey that was squashed to death, melly who has a brain tumour, transfer these bad luck to another ppl
he could manipulate death, he could manipulate truth
he's like one of God's miracles, wow-ed.
this bloody irritating guy called Percy, one fo the prison gaurds
he's the most insensitive man ever on earth, broke prisoner's fingers
talked back to Hanks, stomped and killed the mouse called Mr Jingles
he didint let this one prisoner die in peace, fked up the execution and he told him what he shouldnt hear ): watch it man!
f*** this bastard la. but he got what he deserved (:
seriously, just watch this show alright. it rocks like my granny's rocking chair! :D
okay, now i've gotta do the stupid movie review man ):
plus social mtg minutes, commskills reflective journal, and what not ):
okay, farewell world, i shall mug on! goodbye my lovelies (:
here's something John Coffery said when he was asked by Hanks if he wanted to flee or sentenced to death,
"Im tired, boss. Tired of being on the road, lonely as a sparrow, I'm tired of never having me a buddy to be with,To tell me where we're going to, coming from or why.Mostly, I'm tired of people being ugly to each other,I'm tired of all the pain I feel & hear in the world everyday,That's too much of it.Its like pieces of glasses in my head,All the time."yes, people being ugly to each other
yes, like pieces of glass in my head,
yes, lonely like a sparrow, tired of being on the road
yes, never having a buddy,
yes yes yes ):
Stephen King, you made me think that whats happening now is not what i can control,
that there are a million things out there worth crying over. feeling hurted and worried
like this wonderful movie you wrote for,
that there are killings out there that are worth my concern,
that the world is ugly and some people are ugly
and even though i cant do much, all i need to do is to
not be uglyso that one day, when i stand in front of God, awaiting my judgement,
i can tell Him i tried my best not to be ugly, to make this world a better place
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Monday, January 08, 2007
hello hello hello
jing tians hi ba hao, fa ah! okay, not funny.
didnt go for lounge duty again again again, cause have to do proj proj proj
i think im married to my projects already la ):
but quite fun know, haha!
im a happy sister because my darling brother, marklimyufong, met me for dinner ystd! and he treated me to the xin wang hong kong restaurant thing. horray horray! thank you for cheering me up mark (: im sorry u called at the wrong time man, was alright till that period. anyway, rang ni puo fei le. gan xie ni! oh, talk to me if u need any female advice about HAHAHAHA (:
somehow, i cant really rmb how i spend my wekend, its like, im spending ti for the sake for it. haiyoh,what am i saying?
finally, social comm meeting tmr!
that stuid cliftom lam la, so many lobangs one okay.
first he was sick, then his boss called him back for sip, i bet he's gonna tel us he's gtting engaged tmr so we'll cancel mtg lor -.-
datou mafan chouchou bendan chaojida wugui
longgg name eh? yes yes. hate you social head!
hahahahhaa!
mtg means im meeting the donkey and vainpot tmr (: YEAHNESS!
hmmm, i dont know what to say already.
so, here's a few words
No idea what’s going on right now?
Haiyoh
I don’t know what you want la
I’m at my wits end
It’s either uncertainty or its over
But I won’t know if you don’t tell me
jacqueson, im so happy for you and you (:
treasure what you have now okay! LOVE YOU & YOU!
you never know what you treasure most until you lose it;twas not my lips you kissed, but my soul
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Saturday, January 06, 2007
maybelle, i'll hug you tight till you came breathyour psot made me cry again.thank you for being you and i thank god i met you.Saturday afternoon, piles of homework to complete, lazing ard the house, not out in town or something like how i would months backits times like this that really make me think..and im thinking again, guess this will be a really random post cause i'll just comment on anything ard.went back to suntec to work there, it feels like the imf period again. even though it was my first day, but i felt like it was home again. the oh-so familiar faces there, i felt loved once again. and whoever made the arrangements must have loved me so much. cause i worked at the main table with felicia, fangwen and khunchen ystd. so i had a 50cent pay rise. hoorraay (: but i bet there must have been alot of ppl talkin behind my back la. like its my 'first day' and im a vip server already. but yeah, i did worked at imf, but yeah, im not that experienced though. sigh. but seriously, i think they are jsut giving me the chance, not because im alrdy up for the job. so im not gonna boast abt it like how some do. but it'll be soemthg i'llw ork towards.oh wells, i should stop thinking again (: but that was a fantastic experience! i'll go back suntec again la. and i wanna thank felicia, fangwen, gary and khunchen for their help (: is it my luck or what? i met my imf eye candies all in one shot ystd!like omg, sign in, i saw barman's voucher. wahlao. then he was the vip barman, double wahlao. and bloody guest drank red wine liek crazy, so had to see him quite alot of times. and i didnt reply his msgs, so i felt so horrible troubling him the whole time. then,went to collect money, uniform guy was queueing in front of me. triple wahlao. haiyan, todl u it was eyecandy, see see only (: now, im like super heck care abt them alrdy. HAHAHAHAHA. dont understnd why mama has to be so caring, sometimes she goes overboard. she was like watching my every move. i know i've been eating lesser these days, but, i jsut dont feel like eating man. dont worry mummy, i'll eat when im hungry.kimmy dear, after like twenty days since it happened, you've been there always. constantly shring your experience and telling me its okay. you were my tower, my pillar, my advisor, my sister, my fren. thank you so much. im sure for me, it hasnt come to an end, but it has certainly stopped and both of us are gonna save lots of sms now (: gonna be busy like a bee these two months, so we'll chill when we have the time alright? send my regards to my 'brother', hahahhahahhaha!i realise i have thing bad bad habit, i tend not to reply ppl's msg. like eyecandy at imf, msg msg msg, but then i dont know what came over me, is topped replying. haha. i met him ystd and i felt so horrible la. ): and lately, dude and brother. sorry man, i just didnt feel there was a need to talk and talk about it. and i have to pay my own bills, okay lar, i admit im damn kiampok can.i thought differences can be worked out, if you really want something out of it. i thought changes can be made, if you really wanna be together. i thought fights were unavoidable if you want a better life. i thought msging was the way to keep things alive, if you wanna communicate. but never did i know that in love, you communicate with ur heart. i never saw that through, thank you for showing me. but i just didnt feel secure enough. time flies, and soon, we'll have become a woman and a man, till then, we'll meet again. i remember this song, and i never will forget. I finally found someone
That knocks me off my feet
I finally found the one
That makes me feel complete
It started over coffee
We started out as friends
It's funny how from simple things
The best things begin
This time it's different
And it's all because of you
It's better then it's ever been'
Cause we can talk it through
My favorite line was
"Can I call you sometime"
It's all you had to say
To take my breath away
This is it, oh, I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one, to be with every night
'Cause whatever I do
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone
Did I keep you waiting (I didn't mind)
I apologize (baby that's fine)
I would wait forever to just to know you were mineYou know, I love your hair (Are you sure it looks right?)
I love what you wear (Isn't it too tight?)
You're exceptional
I can't wait for the rest of my life
This is it, oh I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one
To be with every night'
Cause whatever I do
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone
'Cause whatever I do
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone
dont worry, im fine, i really am.
it jsut how ironic life is, i can relate everythg to my life, even though it happened wayy after i fell in love with this song (:
three cheers to life, cause we've still got the sun to love, the moon to cry and the stars to laugh.
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Thursday, January 04, 2007
omg omg, how true how true?
the computer seems to understands me totally.
Utmost in your mind is success. You are constantly seeking stimulation and a life full of experience. You are trying to 'grow' and above all you need to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt. You are an enthusiastic individual, full of life with the desire to live intensely. You like contact with others and are enthusiastic by nature. You are receptive to anything new, modern or intriguing. Your interests are many and you are likely to expand your fields of activities. You are optimistic about the future and you deserve every success because deep down you are a 'winner'.
You are very orderly, methodical and self sufficient. You demand and need the respect, recognition and understanding of all those who enter into your sphere on influence.
Being a very proud individual, you tend to hold yourself aloof pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain and pleasure. This is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional individual, one that may make a hasty decision and perhaps regret it at leisure. It is time now to break the bond of detachment and be the 'you' that you would like to be - give vent to your emotions and enjoy yourself.
You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.
You don't like authority and you rebel against all forms of limitation. You are your own person and you intend to stay that way and to get on in the world simply by your hard work and determination.
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was sufferingf rom a terrible moodswing, but am alright now!
omg, im going insane already okay
jsut as it hoguht that mkting proj is like done done,
she told us we have quite a lot to work on
so that means i've got more work this weekened,
im gg to be so so so busy this two months,
i guess it'll be a good thing la? oh wells. (:
this weekend, so many things to do!
1. comm skills reflective journal
2. leadership indivisual moive review
3. sources for mrkting project
4. TPSU social comm mtg on sunday!
5. econs article and country analysis
6. arts and appr, research on mosaic -.-
and i have to pay my own hp bills now okay!
omg, im so in need of money la.
new year clothes, insatllments for the laptop im plannign to get
and my hp bills.
i feel like mummy now, oh man ):
i dont know what to say anymore,
everyday i view my blog, i dont see a point anymore
all those who've viewed, you've seen the ups and downs.
i dont know why im here, but i feel this sudden urge like im going to burst again.
but this time, its not ahem, its them.
somehow, i know that when i ahve a problem, i know who to run to.
maybelle, you have been absolutely supportive.
thank you for your assuring words, you provide em the support nobody else can give.
i knwo you guys care, but i guess, its not the way i can accept.
words words, those simple words.
never would u know that those could actually trigger that damn dam huh?
but yes, it just did.
hey, i really knwo what im doing,
thank you for ur words of concern.
im jsut listening to my heart, and im gg to follow what it says.
i dont nee dpeople to tell me what to do, because i have a mind of my own
easily influenced i may be, but yeah.. still, thanks for the advices.
really, no offence, but thank you.
i guess, im just sick and tired of the world telling me to move on.
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Wednesday, January 03, 2007
hello world,
first day of school but i had no lessons
went back achool to finsih up my marketing proj
hoorraaayyysssss (:
im glad its done done done!
but im still very lost la,
i still ahve alot of catching up to do,
in order to be on par with the group
their brain works super fast and i shouldnt be lazy anymore!
went tm to dine with lingie, thank you lingie (:
but im too stubborn to change, but thank you still!
enjoy wearing your mondo shoes ah!
went to collect my hp jsut now, lalala.
oh my goodness, all my saved msgs,
all my thoughts, all my memories
are all deletedd! omg, devastated.
probably a good thing la, makes me think less
alright, im going to see my beautiful class tmr at tutorial
and hopefully im not as lost sheep anymore!
gotta buy my organsier to keep me organised, haha!
and curiousity killed the cat, so the cat dies nine times out of curiousity.
errmss, that was my reaction too. laughs.
i shall try to smile more tmr, kimlovesall (:
signing out.
i still cry myself to sleep everynight,
i still wish that you could tell me this was all a jokethat we could still go back to ystd.i still pray and wish that we were back in december.i still think about december, how i should have peck you back on the cheek,how i should have tell you how much i miss you,how i should have not think about all those unnessasary stuffhow much i want to be with you.i guess right now, u jsut need some time and space,to free your mind and thoughts i guess i could really live without those sms, becasue those late night calls are what i treasure most.i still wait till two o'clock before i go to bed.if only i had loved with my heart, and not my mind,if only i had not thought about whats ard us.if only i have thought about nothing else, but us.i dont think i'll have the courage to open up to another guy,i knwo im stubborn, but i dont know.i guess, if we could ahve talked it over,we could have a really happy ending.baby, i misss you.
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Monday, January 01, 2007
hello world,
lets put out hands to welcome 2007! :D
and with a prayer, the Mrs.Das way :D
feets together, bow ur heads, clasp ur hands
Dear God, we pray that this brand new year will be better than 2006,
we pray that all the people we love will be happier this year,
they'll be in good health and there shall be peace in this world.
Amen.
well, 2006 hasnt been a fantastic year, but it certainly wasnt a horrible one (:
i've meet wonderful friends from temasek :D
my family form FOC 0607, i love you guys soooo much!
mum, dad, brothers and sisters. you guys rock!
then, all the buddies and crazy friends from TPSU (:
hello people, we are the best! keep doing ur crazy thing!
my dearest class 1H02, differences we may have,
people we love who have left, we are still together as one!
glad to know such a fun loving class (:
darling girls from the disputed champions, TPDBG (:
thank you for accepting me into the team, that was more than winning a medal for me.
the uber biantai trainings we had and the tears, laughter and sweat we've goen through together.
thank you for making my sporting life so full of excitement and love (:
le jie, wo hen ai ni! ur the best coach on earth!
and thank you all for my wonderful birthday we spent together, h-a-h-a.
hello brothers, alamak. i dont knwo whatnto say la. love u guys so much. but sometimes i wanna chokeslam all of you.
!@#$^*&%# no matter how harsh ur critics are, i kow they are meant for me to learn from it. goodluck with ur love life you losers! hahahaah (: LOVE YOU BROS!
hello sisters, wonderful people like daryl, kim tiang, maybelle and jacqueline, thank you for being there 24/7 (: u knwo i knoe u more than words can say!
heeyyyy maguss! had fun at OTC 0607 :D hope to see all of you at FOC/FOC 0708! (:
hello sentosa clique, hahahah. i cant describe the fun we had since that outing two months ago.and i treasure the time we spent together! sentosa ocne more oaky? (: HOORRAY!
well, spent the countdwn at kimtiang's hse (:
quality time to spend with ur girlfriend u miss for such a long time.
went east coast with her family for cyclign session then dined there.
really did get some fresh air, it was great la.
sped through the pedestrians as if in a maze.
well, thought hard about life (: and am glad im alive la.
cause tiang's bro always langga into me ):
went back to countdwn with marcusa nd keat tat
justin came after he met the mysterious person -.- see, cheehong!
okay, jsutin, im kiding alright.
and i starrted my mahjong lessons la.
wahhhlaaao eh, my heart so pain can.
i played the wholllleeeeeee day jsut to win back my 8 bucks and then, kimmy had some 5 tai thingy for alto of times and im dead.
im officially broke. omg.
i must must must master the art of mahjong (:
MORE MAHJONG SESSIONS OKAAY! :D
thank you wukequn&kimmy for the longg talks we have, really really appreciate it (: keep in touch okay? i'll be alone in tp ):
love you guyss!
well well, i've been awake for 36 hours already and i am damn tired.
so, i should go off to bed soon.
social comm meeting tmr, omg, finally a meeting i'll enjoy!
will laugh my ass off at horse, blurqueen and datou again!
kimlovesall (:
thank you for the wonderful times we had, i'll never forget themmemories they might become, but they'll be close to my hearti dont want us to feel so awkward, i guess it hurts for both sides,but at least we're better this way, have fun as friendsim trying my best to be as happy as before, and i hope you will too.if ever, will you come back again?
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