Friday, November 17, 2006
warning, emo session in the makingdont read on if u feel like trash alreadyhello world,
well, life's been pretty tough on me lately
it feels as though everything's falling in on me
first it was them, everything was a mistake
shouldn't have trusted them
well, whats done is done
at least im the victim, not the culprit
then it was dragonboat,
no doubt, i love the sport
but it was a mistake to join the school team before trying it out
oh well, at least i met a great bunch of friends
and a wonderful coach who taught me how to love, how to live
she taught me whats passion, its sometihng that'll kaap u going on and on, jsut like mat
she taught me whats respect, cause i have so much respect for her
if you;re free, i can tell you almost everything she told us.
i remembered.
then it was the meeting of my best friend,
hahaha, i cant help but laugh at it
but im glad after that incident, the stickings, the cold war,
my 'pai-chi-gan-' towards him is already gone
i know, he might think im such a wierdo,
but yeah, its over man.
but i know we wont be as close as yesterday
im sorry, fren (:
then it was the clash of the titans,
one's a joke,
two's flatterring,
three's a disaster.
i think only sam wil understnd what im talking about.
cause she feels the same,
well, why rush it? chill, think carefully.
and i'ver been there, done that
i dont see a need to get involved.
its troublesome and time-consuming
but that's what im tell myself, i think.
and thats not what my heart's telling me, im sure
complicated sentiments.
whatever la, dont think so much girl,
just be yourself and you'll find that megawatt smile coming back!
sam, cheers!
then, i feel like a bitch, always hanging his phone calls like that
like im hiding away from mum or somethg,
its really childish of me.
but i dont wan mum to always bug me about stuff,
and it wont reflect nicely on him if mum knew i was talking to him
mark, she know la. that bloody chatterbox,
she knows what shit we'll be talking abt, she's okay w it
i even suspect she calls mark to chat can, so
gum.
i guess he just dont know my frens yet, thats why she's protective
but i knoe she loves me, and i feel so bad for treating her like shit this whole week.
i must stop, cause i love her (:
but mama should learn not to irritate me with gazillion her phone calls,
dman, shouldn'e have let her know that i had free-incoming calls la!
After that was this thing called love,
no no, im not attached,
but its the love i feel from them
semester one, it was "Melissa, WenJun, please please please"
now, its "mel, jun, go to hell!"
then, "Michelle, Felicia and LingWei, hello hello"
but now, "tiny, fel, lingie, i tell you somethg!"
hahaha, notice the diff?
im more than glad to say that im proud of them
each and everyone of them are unique,
mel is the heck care, sporty, attitude girl with a violin -.-
wenjun the glam, diva queen, the eye candy of the guys in tp
tiny the sweet, make-do-with, super kind kindergarden helper!
felicia, the blur, hardworking and at times blunt without knowing VIP server!
lingie is the BCSgodness, hardworking, at times autocratic but if she doesn't, who'll make the stand!
hahaha, plus ruirui, blur, pretty, the makeup artist of the class!
they've made me feel like im loved again
its heartwarming, its called love
dark secrets that we'll share,
hot gossip that we'll scream at,
lunh breaks that we'll enjoy together,
funny jokes that we'll laugh at,
the times we've been there for one another,
might be tiny incidents, but we were there for one another
i guess this is poly life, you get hurted then u find love
and i pray that God will bless them all
but still, i feel like trash, arent you supposed to scream ur rantings on ur blog?
no, i dont feel comfortable
look at my entries, anyone of them showing signs that i cant hang on in the team anymore?
no right? thats why the girls were shocked that i left.
i dont know why, i hate to let them know im hurted,
i'll just ignore them.
and hurt myself instead.
wtf, seriously.
but hurting them hurts me back too
the look they gave me was like, ouch.
and sometimes, the worst part is that
they dont know they hurted you?
and tries to cheer you up thinking something or someone else did?
sigh, i guess they are jsut kind yet blur ppl.
but at least i know they cares.
and some people think its okay to let me know somethings,
but they dont know that its like throwing me a bomb,
and a kick in the face.
if ever he asked me that in my face,i tell you,
i'll break down and cry.
its tough, but who said it was gonna be easy?
it was just a random qn, but it weighted like a bomb to me
work has never feel like shit since ages ago
but still, i felt lost as if without help
i dont know how to say, but i know some things are diff
mayb im sensitive,or mayb cause lian-eh & yanling werent with me
lynnette is the best observer ever on earth
she knows all my darkest secrets even though i din tell her anything
sammie sam, dont think so much darling
we're all great kids, so smile and face the world
this is only the beggining, wait till u met the world
you'll face more! so handle this stress n work things out
dont rush though, take ur time to think
i love you two (:
11:50 PM
I love vintage & rouge-.
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