Saturday, June 18, 2005
back from badm camp
i dont know how to explain it
bloody mixed up emotions those 3days 2nights
gotta say this first,
this entry isnt nice at all.
no offence but jus read on..
well,i got to understnd my juniors really well now(:
heh.the team bonded and all
which is really nice
butt his camp also marks the end of my badm life in sjc
i'll miss it though
well,loads of things that pissed me off in the camp
but no hard feelings though
but i think i understnd my teammates better now
i see things in a diff way
now i understnd myself better too
its all diff now that im a certified senior
who can come back to scare the tiny sec1s
and scold my bloody slacker-juniors
wo lao le ahh!!!
hehs.
but i tell you la.
i seriously cannot stand ___
she cant stop shaking when she talks la
and i have to bear with it for three dayys?
bleamy.i get irritated easily and she still shake shake shake
and when she talk to us ah,
she act like she's some tcher and sits dwn on the chair??
hello.your jus a fucking student
and i can so fuking see that she doesnt know a single fucking thing
and shes gona lead the team next yr
fat hope la.
i doubt they'll gonna go far
and every single fucking thing is dont by stacy n elaine.
where the fucking hell are you?
you depend everything on them
u say u know ur not a good leader
but move those bloody limbs,not jus that fucking mouth
i think those moleys are seriously fucking blind
to think that they can trust you with the job?
well,i think we all saw it clear.
you cant lead madam
you did no shit
you didnt do all the backstage work
you just wanted to stand out there to get the title
you can even earn our respect for you
you slack during trns and lost ALL the matches
even i can win you when im such a lousy pok
what more can i say??
and there is you.
i dont know whats gotten into you my dear
but i thought that i knew you well
you dont seem like the ___ i knew before
you followed her everywhere she went
your just like a fucking dog
you copy every single fucking shit she did
now where is the __ i knew had gone?
come on and get back to your own skin
and quit this fucking game
cause i cant stand you any longer
and i dont even wanna start
you talk like your all that
but actually your not
i dont even dare to speak bout being serious and fight for comps
and u dare to shoot at the sec1s?
i dont even think your enough to scold them
because i see you slack
jus wake up and slap your fucking face
its reality that really counts so stop thinking you are great
and you my fucking bitch
i dont know if its you i see?
cause i dont understnd how ppl like you survive
or mayb its your luck
moleys think that you are great
but come on,its just an act
we see you bio-ing them to see if they were checking you out
so then you can put up a fucking good act to show that youre the best
and you come tell me that your fucking sick
before those fucking matches
then smile away when there's no stress
and think it'll be a good excuse to get away if you lost
come on,dont think your fucking smart because we're not stupid
becaue we can see you plan those fucking acts
you can slack all those fucking trns
cause i graduated and i dont give a fucking damn
just slack all you want and end up like the first fucking shit
well,i simply dont care.
you can see we despise you
but i dont think u understand
you think its okie because you've got moley's support.
well,we dont give a damn
okie.
now you two grown up shit
pls listen up and care
i dont understnd why u two are so biased
but,i dont give a damn(already)
its time that i have to leave
but i jus hope you'll see things clear
that fucking shit cant lead the team
and i dont think she needs a chance
and that girl can socialise damn well,
but i think her ego's getting in the way
oh,and that fucking shit is full of lies
jus watch out and take care
i think you guys gotta get your emotions out
and do your job in black and white
this team is gg down the stream
and hope you'll hold it back
you guys did a real great job
but jus open those fucking nice eyes reall bigg
cause i come for more trns than you do
and i think i know more than you.
yeah.hahas.enough!
well,had captain ball friendlies with swim team and vball team
haha,they're all really nice ppl.
i bet vball team will go real far in comps next yr
and swim team will fly like fishes in july(:
well,its a great match and we all played real well
this yr's camp was alrights
i still think my sec 1 badm camp was the worst
did so many fucking push ups la
was so damn tired(:
well,i've grad from badm team now
to focus on my Os
but my heart's still with badm
how to pull it back??
well,jus stop slacking my darling juniors.
sec3,2 and 1
even if you think you didnt.
it still aint good enough to win the bigg names
so even if you've given a little,
come on,give a little more
even if u ran a mile,
come on.give a little more
what tear,pain and saddness
can exchange with the glory,smiles and happiness?
nothing else but the gold in the hand
can take me to my heaven(:
i didnt get mine in secondary
i only got a bronze
but i kept on fighting
till i see something gold
so i hope you all will remeber how hard we train.
just push push push and push
to help you reach for gold.
i promise i'll be back after Os
to give you a boost for on that
i dont care if you're gonna hate me much
just reach out for that gold
lost to tkgs on tue.
real sad cause we thought it was the end
especialy for me.since its the last comp i play for sjc
but we continued in the loser's pool
we were agnst xinmin
we all fought hard btu i think they were already mentally defeated
huiling and i fought so fucking hard.
and got what we desreved.
WE WON THOSE XINMIN-SIANS(:
with a whopping three sets(:
8/15, 15/12, 15/13
we won the best doubles!!!
i've been wanting to play with them for a jolly well long time
and now that we have won!!!
its such a great feeling(:
it one step closer to my target(:
i hope that my juniors can be like us
well,we're not that great.
btu i wanted to be like kathy and evelyn
and i think that we have(:
YEAH.
but we still lost to xinmin.
cause the rest lost their match.
ther's still alot of improvement for the team
in mmentally and physically.
honestly,we can win.
its because of HER and HER SLACKING ATTITUDE
and because of THEIR poor mental skills.
well,its the end for me.
but the ending was nice
i teared in the bus back to school
becaus ei knew it was the end
nobody in that fucking bus
felt the way i did
i regarded that comp seriously
but i guess nobody cared.
to make things worse,
no fucking supporters wanted to come
well,i dont even wanna guess why.
it was a rotten day for us.
but,at least i won my game(:
fianlly mummy fired the fucking tutor
cant imagine how happy i am!
now enought of the glummy week
now its time to relax.
think abt the sweet victory and i can have a good rest.
camp wasnt only bout being pissed
btu the fun that we had!!
i was the lamer and the ass.
i hope you all had fun(:
i hope we can do it again and i'll sing my songs(:
i sang and yelled and laughed and joked
heh.
it was so much fun!!
so tmr's the second last trn that i'll have
i hope it'll turn out great.
jus pray that he'll be there.
so i can rest my case.
26,the day i dread.
so pls dont ever come.
kim loves all.
11:26 PM
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