Thursday, March 24, 2005
chachacha
i was hoping that today will come soon
yes yes yes
finally its a holiday(:
im like so looking forward to this?
im seriously freaking out
GCE chi-na is like abt 60 more days?
and im not doing a single thing about it
AAHHHH!!!
shit.
but im like so lethargic n im slacking every single day
i guess the only session where i pushed myself was pe?
ran like elephants on the loose today
argh
my ankles hurt like shit
GOSH.suzie FORGOT to pick on me today
mayb because of the hidious handwriting on toi's hand tt distracted her
dots.she made such a bigg fuss out of it
today,miraclously.
susan walked past me without sayinga nything
i thought she''ll scold me again or soemthg
din even bother to greet her like i will do always
n i think she saw me
i will never forget her lo
was at the prize tabel
bloody SEC3 councillor din stop me n stood there like an total idiot
when i pass then she pull me back
i din yell at her or anything
i jus 'huh?"
tts all
thne susan yelled at me
scold me horrible and critisize the leader's badge on my chest
saying im not a role model n shit like tt
like hello?
i jus crossed two steps across soem boundary tt i DIDNT even know i wasnt suppose to
and tt damn girl din tell me so
n i got scolded for tt?
go reflect on ur words la
totally out of point
hurt me lo
like why critisize MY badge when im on duty tt day?
ad it hurts even more when u praised me bfore
im so full of shit
but you dont respect me
no way am i gonna respect u
mayb i just dont hav a fate with Ss
fuck
very sad now
very tired
cant move a single muscle on the faace
daddy n mum gg genting tmr
like finally im free!
iw anna go out again
if i dont now
when am i gg to?
had this longg talk with mrchan today
he said some things abt papa
was touched
i mean,he's really a great man
he's sick but he jus wanna complete his jov as a ft
really nice of him
kinda guilty for not paying attn in class
then he'll,"CHIAN BOON/QIANWEN AHH,WHAT U ALL DOING BEHINDD?"
me,"HUH?NOTHING LA."
he'll,"DONT AH,MUST PAY ATTN HORR"
me,"OKIE.SORRY AH"
he'll,"OKIE OKIE,GO FOR CALSS AHH"
he ALWAYS do tt
daryl n i arent loud but he always spots us
is tt a bad thing?
but sometimes it really hit me hard
like what was i doing?
why wasnt i listening
i have the guts ot say others what abt ME?
yea.so i became super guai after tt
whatever
yeah.he's a nice guy.
lets jus do real well for our Os n make him smile 41 times k?
haii.im really doubtful of my abilities lo
well,chan talked and talked n talked
abt his life
n i really can relate to myself
i mean,when i fight with ppl,eg.daryl,i dont wanna lose.hohos
evil.but yes.shall change(:
and
i realise i changed much form sec1 n 2 life?was like super loud,rude,lianish n everythg bad
guess i really
grew up
?pretty normal now?
i really dont wanna loose all my sec frens
i mean,we stayed together for four yrs
sharing everything together
menstral pills,recess,attitude frm tchers, trash talks
and all those shit
it really hurts to think tt this is our last yr
i dont wanna go yet
its wayy too early for me
i'll miss my class
why am i thinking of sophie & joan now?hahas.
ahh.why n i getting emotional?
mayb cause sunday is coming again
hohos.
man,i gotta buck up le.
cant gwet myself to sit dwn on the study table n read
always get tempted to do somethg else
sheesh,im crapping
(jus re-read my entry)
sis jus told me something real funny
huixiang(tt relief tcehr)is her fren
she told her this
hx asked the class,"what are elections held for?"
reply,"to elect the next PAP"
like huh?
aint the pap the organisers
hohos.lame
argh.
im tired
i failed eng,maths,maths n humans
like wtf?
gotta get a nice bigg curfew frm my mum this thurs
ah. hmm.gotta plan for the long weekend(:
ah. my eyelashes r fluttering like nobody's busineesss
oohhhh.
okie.i shall sleep
kim loves all!
11:32 PM
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