Thursday, March 24, 2005

chachacha
i was hoping that today will come soon
yes yes yes
finally its a holiday(:
im like so looking forward to this?
im seriously freaking out
GCE chi-na is like abt 60 more days?
and im not doing a single thing about it
AAHHHH!!!
shit.
but im like so lethargic n im slacking every single day
i guess the only session where i pushed myself was pe?
ran like elephants on the loose today
argh
my ankles hurt like shit

GOSH.suzie FORGOT to pick on me today
mayb because of the hidious handwriting on toi's hand tt distracted her
dots.she made such a bigg fuss out of it
today,miraclously.
susan walked past me without sayinga nything
i thought she''ll scold me again or soemthg
din even bother to greet her like i will do always
n i think she saw me

i will never forget her lo
was at the prize tabel
bloody SEC3 councillor din stop me n stood there like an total idiot
when i pass then she pull me back
i din yell at her or anything
i jus 'huh?"
tts all
thne susan yelled at me
scold me horrible and critisize the leader's badge on my chest
saying im not a role model n shit like tt
like hello?
i jus crossed two steps across soem boundary tt i DIDNT even know i wasnt suppose to
and tt damn girl din tell me so
n i got scolded for tt?
go reflect on ur words la
totally out of point
hurt me lo
like why critisize MY badge when im on duty tt day?
ad it hurts even more when u praised me bfore
im so full of shit
but you dont respect me
no way am i gonna respect u
mayb i just dont hav a fate with Ss

fuck
very sad now
very tired
cant move a single muscle on the faace
daddy n mum gg genting tmr
like finally im free!
iw anna go out again
if i dont now
when am i gg to?
had this longg talk with mrchan today
he said some things abt papa
was touched
i mean,he's really a great man
he's sick but he jus wanna complete his jov as a ft
really nice of him
kinda guilty for not paying attn in class
then he'll,"CHIAN BOON/QIANWEN AHH,WHAT U ALL DOING BEHINDD?"
me,"HUH?NOTHING LA."
he'll,"DONT AH,MUST PAY ATTN HORR"
me,"OKIE.SORRY AH"
he'll,"OKIE OKIE,GO FOR CALSS AHH"
he ALWAYS do tt
daryl n i arent loud but he always spots us
is tt a bad thing?
but sometimes it really hit me hard
like what was i doing?
why wasnt i listening
i have the guts ot say others what abt ME?
yea.so i became super guai after tt
whatever
yeah.he's a nice guy.
lets jus do real well for our Os n make him smile 41 times k?
haii.im really doubtful of my abilities lo
well,chan talked and talked n talked
abt his life
n i really can relate to myself
i mean,when i fight with ppl,eg.daryl,i dont wanna lose.hohos
evil.but yes.shall change(:
and i realise i changed much form sec1 n 2 life?
was like super loud,rude,lianish n everythg bad
guess i really grew up?
pretty normal now?
i really dont wanna loose all my sec frens
i mean,we stayed together for four yrs
sharing everything together
menstral pills,recess,attitude frm tchers, trash talks
and all those shit
it really hurts to think tt this is our last yr
i dont wanna go yet
its wayy too early for me
i'll miss my class
why am i thinking of sophie & joan now?hahas.

ahh.why n i getting emotional?
mayb cause sunday is coming again
hohos.
man,i gotta buck up le.
cant gwet myself to sit dwn on the study table n read
always get tempted to do somethg else

sheesh,im crapping
(jus re-read my entry)
sis jus told me something real funny
huixiang(tt relief tcehr)is her fren
she told her this
hx asked the class,"what are elections held for?"
reply,"to elect the next PAP"
like huh?
aint the pap the organisers
hohos.lame

argh.
im tired
i failed eng,maths,maths n humans
like wtf?
gotta get a nice bigg curfew frm my mum this thurs
ah. hmm.gotta plan for the long weekend(:
ah. my eyelashes r fluttering like nobody's busineesss
oohhhh.
okie.i shall sleep
kim loves all!

11:32 PM

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Wednesday, March 23, 2005

hey
hohos.
yeah!!i have a tagb!!hohos.YESH!!
and its greenwhen i saw it i was liike WOAHH!!!NICE MAN!
hello?
i was the first freak to fall in love with green
since sec 2ask my queen la!dots.
and its only now that GREEN is IN!
hell with fashion!
hohos.nvm
man,i've been doing alot of thinking these days.
really stressing me out
need the long weekend to destress
hopefully touvhing the mahjong sets asap!!
hohos
daddy n mummy gg genting on friday
hope uncle lim gives them some cash to bring back(:
and who knows what they'll do at night
two nights without their daughters to interrupt their sleep with our toilet breaks
hohos hurhur

CHEW LIMIN!!!MONSTER!!!
THANKS FOR THE BLOG AND TAGBOARD OPKIE!!!
AHHHH!!!!THANKS FOR IT AH!
I LOVE MY TAGBOARD!!HOHOHS.
WO AI SI NI AH!!
heyheyheyi wan treat u to mmacss.
when ur free?
hohos
im such a nice twin monster(:
we're gonna have a monster feastaa!!

i dont know what to do
i mean i've already set my mind to give up
and i plan to do so
and i dont care whatever everyone else is saying ANYMORE
i dont wanna think abt it ever again
mayb im gonna make a mistake
whatever,its my life
even if i mess up,
itsd MINE
lets just blame it on the oh-mighty guy up there
we're jus not fated
gotta stay focus here
cant care abt these shit stuff anymore
so im sorry to say
but im letting go.
just let me forget it n let go
im sorry-

and i realise that im not paranoid
or depressed
when i made up that decision(scrolls up)
yup,
mayb its the correct thing to do:D
hohos.

i wrote a poem again
did it on monday
saw soeone at the lockers
so decided to act as if i was busy
so i wrote it.
hohos
done in ten mins
so i dont think it'll b nice(:
actually its not a poem hor?
it doesnt rhyme'_"
hahas
enjoy!
kim loves all(:

The road of life

We met on a holiday
And soon we became friends
You held my hand one day
And prayed that I’ll never leave your side
You took care of me
And showered me with love
And soon, we were together

One day, you came to me
There were tears in your eyes
As you said that you were leaving
And I knew what you meant
We hugged and cried in one another’s arms
And you promised to make me Mrs. Cohen someday
We cried and prayed that this day will never end

One day, I saw this familiar figure
Walking through the woods
He was heading my direction
The light blinded my vision
I couldn’t see
Then you held out a box
And greeted me with that familiar smile
I saw my reflection in the shiny rock
And I began to cry
You said, “Will you marry me?”
And I fell into your arms

We are back together now
Living life together
Soon, it’ll be our big day
We loved each other so much
I wished that you were mine now
Our day finally came
And I saw the memories of our past
It was like a beautiful movie
Filled with loyalty
Undying love, sympathy
And tears
It was too lovely for my eyes
Too sweet for my tooth
Too perfect for my mind
Too wonderful to be true

It was thirty years ago
That you left my side
The stupid war tore us apart
And left us bleeding inside
But now that you’re back
I’m finally yours
And you’re finally mine
We’ll live together forever
No one can tear us apart
Because I love you

7:37 AM

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Tuesday, March 22, 2005

HEYO MONSTER!

TAG BOARD'S DONE!
SIGN IN AT WWW.TAG-BOARD.COM YEAH
AND UR USERNAME IS KIMMYLOVE.
PW IS THE SAME YEAH.
hope im the only one who know ur pw :X

LOVEYA! TATA

MINN

11:15 PM

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MONSTER IS INVADING!!
HOHOHO

KIMMYCHEWY I LOVE YOUEEE..

ANW YES.. CHANGE TO BOX LER YAR.
AND I DONT KNOW WHAT TAGBOARD YOU WANT SO.. TELL ME DEN I MAKE FOR U K!

HAHAHA.. HOPE YOU LIKE IT!
TATA!!

MINN; HER MONSTER!
RAHHHH..

12:48 AM

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Sunday, March 20, 2005

hey
i should sleep now
but i dont think i can sleep tonight without typing this entry!!!
hmm
as usual,went for trn today]
din really expect anything
but i saw submarine!!
OH MY GOSH!!!!
I SAW SUBMARINE!!
yes yes yes
he came for trn,like finally??
yea
coach call me to play with him
jesus,i nerly fainted
hands were sweaty, legs couldn't move
i felt like a total idiot
yes i was:(
it was really great okie.
played for abt half an hr plus
the best moment of my life!!
sheesh
he taught me things tt i neglected
see?its not only my idol that pushes me on
its the FREE teachings i'll get
was great then we had to play fullcourt
hell am i nervous
ahh,cant take a single shit okie!
embarass myself la
shit
but was okie..
he taught me stuff
he's nice(:

its true u knw.
when he play,he always smile(:
hahas
dots la
but im always lucky cause i always get to play with him!!
haha!suck on that!
man.i thought time passed real fast and it did
trn ended n my heart was crying
i have to wait for another month okie!!!
wth.cant he always come for trn?
and i realise how SOME guys jus love to brag brag brag and brag
sheesh
earthworm should just shut his damn mouth
its always the same topic
dots,hey,thats not why im here for

hahas
then huiling had to cab home
so eilis,choi n i went for lunch
as usual,i fa hua chi again n toured the whole damn hawker centre hoping he'll have lunch there
im so god damn dumb(:
but he wasnt there
so i told them abt the ADIDAS WAREHOUSE SALE that was ending that day
yea
so we decided to go
hohos,shopping is certainly NOT fun without money
well,i had a pathetic five dollar note with me
there shld b alot of things to buy
but its the last day
so we managed to get the adidas tennis skirt n i got an extra swim cap
to think of it
i shld hav spent the money on a tennis shirt huh?nvm
hohos
then we sat down in the middle of nowhere in the expo
waiting for a saviour to call me and pass me money to pay for the shit
AND THEN..
AND THEN A GROUP OF GUYS WALK PASS
IT WAS LIKE A GUSH OF CLOD AIR BRUSH PASS OUR SSKIN
I COULD FEEL THE SHIVER RUNNING DOWN MY SPIN
I LOOKED UP AT THE PLACE WHERE SOH EILIS WAS LOOKING AT
AND I SAW
I SAW
I SAWWWW!!!!!
I SAW SUBMARINE!!!!
OH MY GOSH
I HELD BACK MY EXCITEMENT
AND AFTER THEY WERE A DISTANCE AWAY
I STAND UP AND JUMP AND YELL
OHHH YEA
i was like a total idiot
dots
i was on cloud nine
sheesh.like writing compo le
yes,was damn happy la
hohos.two times in a row
hahas.happy!
still thinking abt it
HOW CAN I EVER SLEEP TONIGHT??
then daddy came n paid
hohos,i hav anther skirt!!
then we went home
din get to see him again but i mean,
ISNT THAT ENOUGH??
I GUESS SO!!!
i swear to god its my lucky day!!
hohos.
iw as so high today!!!

aww,and one more imp thing!!
never wil i ever forget
its a lp's bday today
hmm,i wonder who?!
HAPPY BDAY MARCIE!!!
LOVES!ENJOY YOUR DAY!
hmmm.and its also one of my fren's bday
i wonder who?hmm..
HAPPY BDAY QI!!!LOVES!!!
am,im so lame.hohos,dumbass.

dots,okie.
kinda late
monster's angry:(
kim loves all!

7:22 AM

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Thursday, March 17, 2005

CHA!
hohos.
went to sch for emath n ss today
as usual,suzie spots me
and asks me to answer her question
she simply hates me okie
WITHOUT A DOUBT
cha
saw her today
hohos,realised that the vball net is like two heads above hers
tsktsktsk(:
hohos

chachacha
dunnno what's sis's problem today
yelled and yelled and yelled
ass la
first was abt my frens being 5 pathetic minutes late
then was abt the traffic light thing
then my bottle having more scratches than hers
SHE IS JUST TOO DAMN FREE!!
argh
pissed.
went to cut hair with monster,sis,eiis n shamin
okie.my wonderful mum paid for them
how nice:D
then the chew family had a brow trim
hoho
shld check out my mum's face-spastic

then we head off to town to meet yumin n choi
little LP get togettherr(:
shopped n all
saw the polka dot roxy wallet i want($32.90)
and the ripcurl tote bag!($69)
argh
the bag's kind of ex eh?but its like partially leather
then i think its worth it(:
damn nice okie!!!
someone drop me some angbaos at my door please!!
bought three pairs of earrings!
but i lost my star stud one and the butterfly i shared with jane!
boo
so sad okie!!argh
ate heeren's wanton mee again(:
took neos(:
walked ard town as usual
looking for things too but
but i end up buying the gio green shirt
hohos.its nice(:
mayb i'll buy the topshop shirt too(:
but i want my roxy n ripcurl!!
chachacha
show me the money!!
and my sister bought her adidas handbag.
wth?its like 49
she's working,she's rich,so nvm
and im not working,im not rich,and it matters alot
apparently,she;s trying to compare
like hello?
u get paid now,and im still straggling la
din even get to see
cause she refuses to give me her vouchers
and said somethg abt who paid for the comp
like i force her to pay one ah?
and she used her share le
i need to buy ankle guard
whatever
now she give me all her vouchers
so am i supposed to bow and thank her?
sheesh
but tt was nice of her la

dman,gotta sleep soon.
kim loves all(:

6:45 AM

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6:45 AM

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Tuesday, March 15, 2005

hello.
played with xinmin yesterday
waited for so damn long
in the end when its our turn,she was like real pissed?
i mean what for?shld b hapy we wun wait anymore eh?
whatever
played and all,was alright la
3/15, 6/15
played against their best two singles players
i gave it all
could hav given my best but i guess i was damn nervous
last comp with huiling,din regret cause i played okay

went to minds today
felt quite guilty because i din entertain the new frens there
was too busy with the painting and decorates
and i din wanna go strolling in the park with them
real lazy
but ltr we realsied we din hav time
hohos,evil us
btu we managed to save the walls
they look great now
hohos
WE CAN PAINT WELL!!
you guys need anyone to paint your hse,call us okie?
i like painting(:
and we pasted out ikea stuff
wahh,my red indian stickers rock lo.
they look so nice
just like the scene in brother bear where the spirits fly above them
so cool
gonna do that for MY room too
and THERE'S SALE IN IKEA!!!
SO MANY NICE THINGS LE!!!
AND THE GREEN CHARMING SNAKE IS HALF PRICE!!
$7.95 ONLY LO!!!
hohos

nvm.im getting high
ikea is a greaty place to shop(:
so is anchorpoint's forget-me-not
MY fav places(:

chachacha
tmr i have some rubbish heritage tour.
haiyoh,so waste time
gotta do my homework soon
i mean,im supposed to be mugging right?
and im enjoying life
and im very very very paranoid
cause im growing fatter!!!
who wants to pay for my lipo fees?
hohos
okie,gtg.
kim loves all(:

6:32 AM

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Saturday, March 12, 2005

KIM'S TALENTED!!!

hey.
wrote this myself.
cried as i wrote.
this is called zen qing liu lu
hahas.
enjoy(:

Letting go

It’s hard to act like you don’t care
Because it’s always there
It bothers me all the time
Although I act like I don’t care
I try to put it behind my mind
But I still slip away
And comes out to haunt me when I sleep
And leaves me with despair

I hate the feeling so much
It even makes me sick
Sometimes I feel like I’m transparent
you walk through me and stab my heart
You come around like its okay
And hurt me without noticing
I begin to think whether I really hate you
But the answer might never be ‘NO’
You left me there to bled and cry
And wants to clean it up
I may be petty, I may be weak
It’s hard for me to forget it
With tears rolling down my cheeks
And a cut in the heart so deep

You hurt me deeply, you hurt me hard
But you don’t seem to be bothered about it
I only need some explanation
To clear my doubts
I only need some love
To let me fit back in
If only someone can give them all to me
I may be able to say ‘forget it’
And carry on with my life

i know it sucks
i still remember how it feels.
things happen in life
some can be left forgotten
but some just cant
yea.so i guess this is how i feel now?
read more*points down
kim loves all(:

12:30 AM

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Friday, March 11, 2005

hohos.
im seriously bored lo.hahas.
so im here again
my bloody tutor is late again.
as usual
how to introduce him to my frens?
haiyo.
but he's good.
currently,(phone rings)(still not tutor)
my bloody blog sucks la.
its like jus copyright from someone
someonehelp pls!!
btu the pic looks nice.
if u look carefully,
it has a bilabong sign there
hohos
sian
im so bored with life lo
what can i do?
im like totally insane right now

i jus need to break free and reach for the stars.
i hate it when its dark at night
i dont feel secure and safe
i hate it when im left all alone
its as if im the only living soul on earth
i hate to face YOU
because i know somewhere inside it'll hurt
i feel so broken and lost
i feel so useless
like im dissapearing into the oh-mighty black hole
i jus need someone to guide me on my way
i jus need someone to care abt me
i jus need someone to love me like you did
i may be selfish
but wasnt there a phrase that says
"to keep a woman's heart is to give in to her?"
i dont want anyone to keep my heart
cause im afraid to give it away
my heart aint made of diamond
they dont shine no matter what shines upon them
my heart aint made of metal
no matter how u break them they'll still b intact
i suppose
my heart is made of pure solid protein
complete with a partially peremeable membrane
that occasionally ooze blood out
(means tt there's a cut)
without me noticing
i jus want to loose myself
and fall into someone's arms and cry
its empty and its slashed
and im talkin abt my heart
i dont know why im crying inside
but im still putting up a strong front

sheesh.
i wrote this ON THE SPOT lo.
hohos
i bet debra must be so proud tt she'll want me in lit class now
hahas.dots
i dont take lit
and im not proud lo
sian
i dunno why but the sec1s think tt im really fierce?
like hello la.
im so nice lo
mayb i was having pms la
hohos.
hell cares.
bloody tutor still isnt here.
im waiting aimlessly.
craving for dinner to come
ate a patatic bowl of honeystars
thats it

my competition is on monday
its held at acsi
dont like
we're playing agnst xinmin
like them again
jus hope we'll win them la.
yea.
kim loves all.(:

3:39 PM

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yo.
hahas.
fianlly got the new blog up
got loads of things to change la
hahas
basically.it kinda suck
i mean,whats with that sluty look on tt model's face?
okies,tts total crap.
haha
din blog for a damn whole long time
wth.
today was feast day.
someone went off key today.was rather super horrendous.
but i din laugh.im nice(:
had a damn freaking long scolding from chow today.
she was really mad.
dots.who cares?
imean,i knw what i do is right tts it.
if i dont,then i'll change la.DUH!
jus call those bloody bastards to suck some fresh air from mandai
was really moody lo.
really spoil my day.damn.
yea.holis r here.wanna go out n shop asap.really gotta get my hands on lots of stuff(:
chachacha.im bored n im out.

8:45 AM

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YO.
WHO DID MY BLOG AH?

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